Olivia Time!!

Heys all you beautiful readers, it's me again! Olivia! <3 Uhm, well it's been awhile since I posted on Bree's blog, so I felt I would let you all know what I've been up to lately!

I've been staying here at her house more and more. Not much for me to do as I really don't know any friends of mine anymore since my reality changed. Umm.. I've been starting to remember instances of myself doing alternate things? I can't quite explain it exactly, but here's an attempt...

I remember my life as Oliver and everything, but lately I've had some of my memories alter slightly? Like my memories of my first time having sex (as Oliver) changed to the first time I had my (Olivia's) cherry pop. I don't like men, but apparently I used to? Anyways, things like that.

In other news, I was totally playing around with Bree when she asked about me moving in with her! I've been waiting for her to ask me for a while now. So, yeah, I'm moving in! Gonna tell her when she get's back. Hopefully I didn't upset her too much... She would lose herself if she didn't have me to clean up after her, plus, I kind of find it arousing... I kind of enjoy taking care of Bree. She means so much to me. I just... Anywho, I should get dinner ready for Bree. Maybe some baked chicken and braised potatoes?

P.S. Hi Bree <3

P.P.S. I found this picture on Bree's little camera. I think I'll just post it here! <3

Sunday Night at My Fam's House!

My mom called and said that dad decided to grill out tonight and asked if I wanted to come. I said sure and that Olivia was probably gonna come to. She said that she figured she would come and that she'll see us around 6-ish.

We got there around 6:05 and I could smell the burgers and steaks cooking! We fixed out plate and sat down outside on the back covered deck and enjoyed one hell of a good meal! Mom had gotten out the big fryer and made some homemade fries and they had watermelon and cantaloupe as well! I ate a burger and the little part of Olivia's steak she couldn't finish. Then mom brought out some homemade lemon pound cake and I completely stuff myself. I secretly lifted up my shirt and looked in shock at my belly spilling over my shorts!!! DAMN!!! Mom cornered Olivia and started to ask her about where she was from. Olivia seemed to be doing fine... thank God! Luke wanted to know if i wanted to throw some football and I said I did. I really wanted to tell him about what all's happened to me. For some reason I feel like I need to tell him.

"Luke, whatcha doing later on this week?"

"Nothing really. Just the normal stuff. Why?"

"Well, I might need you to come over and help me move some stuff."

"Sure! What day you thinking?"

"Oh, umm, let's say Wednesday. Will that work?"

"I don't see why not. What time?"

"After work... around 6:30-ish?"

"Sounds good! Now, go long sis!"

I did our favorite route! Straight then cut to the old swingset, fake the pass then run toward the pool and catch it there for the score!!! Dolphins win! Marino finally gets his ring!!!

"You ready to go in?"

"Sure! I wanna go upstairs and check to see if I have anything I might need from my old closet."

"Cool! Hey! It's great seeing you so happy! I really like this new you!"

"Well thanks! And I am happy! It feels good to be happy."

"No prob!"

"Well, I better go rescue Olivia. Mom had her cornered. Looked like one of her 2000 question moments! See ya in bit Luke."

"Bye!"

I went in and mom had some old photo albums out and was showing them to O!

"You were such a cute kid, Bree! Just a little darling!"

"I know, right?" I'm gonna head upstairs and see if there's anything I can use from my old closet. Come on up if you can peal yourself away from those albums!"

I headed upstairs and opened the closet doors and saw my old computer. I could only imagine that it probably has some big glimpses into my/Bree's life on it... I decided to hook it up. I got it going and started to look for some stuff about my past. I started with trying to find some picture folders and I hit the jackpot in he documents folder! Wow! All these pics of me and I have no remembrance of them being taken. So weird and almost spooky! I'm gonna have to take this thing home with me!

I just connected to wifi and logged on and am writing this here. I also found some pics of me from high school... Here they are!!! Look at how young I look!!! Look at my hair! So crazy awful!!! Lol!

Me and Lizzy!

Lizzy squeezing my face!

Me and Emily. My/Bree's best friend!

OMG!!! As I just uploaded these on the page, the memories came back to my. I just got chills! BIG time! This was last day of school my senior year!!! As well as signing in our yearbooks, a lot of us girls decided to wear blue shirts, for some crazy reason and sign the shirts as well! Up top, that's my good friend Lizzy! In the middle, that's Lizzy squeezing my cheeks! And on the bottom, doing the duck face, that's Emily, my best friend from high school.

OMG! Lizzy! We could've been a couple. We had some sexual tension/tendencies between us. I think one time we made out and played with each others boobs at my house in the treehouse. Holy shit!!! We did that before me and David made out. That's why I stopped him I think. I was starting to get confused about my sexuality at that point... Damn! This is so much of a memory overload. Gonna close it down and go look at some pics with O and mom...

Bye for now! Bree signing off form her old computer in her old room!

Found Something Interesting in the Diary!!!

Stuck in the back of my/Bree's diary was a printed out chat from guess who... me and David. He obviously thought something relationship wise was going on between us when I felt it wasn't...

Here's a little excerpt from it... This must have happened right after the treehouse incident that I blogged about here... Treehouse Incident

david1356: Yes I am pissed its not most toward you. But im more hurt you would choose his dumb self over me.
mcbree89: Im not choosing anybody...
david1356: He wants what I have. Lets start here.... Do you like me the way I like you?
mcbree89: Look, I like you as a friend... I just don't feel like being in a relationship. It's not you. Nobody said anything. And before u get mad, I don't like Ben and I'm not going out with him...
david1356: Well this is awkward. So was last time we were together cuz I thought you liked me and I really like you a lot. I thought thats why we hung out so much
mcbree89: I didn't know what I felt... I just don't know. I was trying to hang out like friends but I guess it led to something else.
david1356: Well you now have me and your mom so confused. So last night Nicole was right?
mcbree89: No, Nicole was very wrong. I don't want us to back off... I guess it's just me...
david1356: Bree, I know about the dating thing. Your mom told me. I can't "date" till i'm 15 either.
mcbree89: I can date whenever, but I just don't feel like being in a good relationship right now. I won't be dating anybody for a while.
david1356: So do you need me to leave you alone? I've waited to tell you I like you for over a year. I like you before I knew about Ben...
mcbree89: No, like I said. I know u are mad, sad and angry but I still want to be your friend...
david1356: I don't know what to tell you. I thought you liked me so I got excited. But now I don't know how to feel because you are saying you just want to be friends. So no I'm upset. And everyone told me when they asked about me and you that you would say yea you liked me and Jodi said you told  her we were basically dating. People told me things like: you smiled when people asked about me, you said we were basically together and you were happy when people asked. Your mom told me things like that happened at home so I honestly thought we had something special.
mcbree89: People thought we were dating because you gave me hugs and they thought we were going out but I said at the beginning we were not going out. They kept on asking me everyday if we were going out so to shut them up, I said we were basically going out. We do go out... but as friends, or so I thought...
david1356: See! trhat's wh y I thought that. I honestly need to know how we can in a nice way figure out how to be friends. You really had me thinking you liked me in a way I have liked you for over a year now.
mcbree89: I still wanna talk to you and say hey to you and be your friend. I am just a little confused about how to take this now. I will tell you one thing for sure. I don't like Ben so please don't be mad.
david1356: I don't care about him, yes he makes me mad as anything when he messes with you. Jealously I know. And when you un-confuse yourself please tell me what you come up with. Please don't think I'm overly mad at you. I'm confused, jealous and confused and mad.
mcbree89: I do not like BEN! I hope we can be friends.
david1356: We have no other choice!
mcbree89: I know you really like me. I was so worried and scared of how to tell u.
david1356: Tell me what exactly?
mcbree89: Of how I would like to just be friends.
david1356: You tell me this after the fact you practically tell everyone we are pretty much dating! That is what hurts the most.
mcbree89: I know, but I didn't know how to tell everyone. Seriously, everyone would ask every second of every day. I just finally had enough and said to a few people we were going out some. It wasn't a lie! We do go out... It was maybe a half-lie...
david1356: They asked me as well and I don't see how this isn't concerning you.
mcbree89: It does concern me everyday of how I "lied" to everyone. And, to tell you this I feel very terrible!
david1356: I don't get how within just days you can change your mind so much. I do not want to pressure you in any way but I'm so confused on how to feel about you. It's really awkward right now and I am not sure how to fix it, but I do want to be friends. It is going to be hard for me to just have the mind set of friend because as far as I knew you felt the same way I did. Sorry I caused so much trouble. I will just go away.
mcbree89: NO! Stop saying that! We can work this out and still be friends.
david1356: Obviously I caused trouble. I just want you so feel comfortable and not worry about me.
mcbree89: You didn't cause trouble.
david1356: Ok. A different word maybe. How about confusion, tension, hatred. The list could go on.
mcbree89: Well... U didn't cause any of it. I promise! It's ok!
david1356: Well, I'll leave you alone now so I can stop being the problem to your mayhem.
mcbree89: For the love of god! I don't want you to leave me alone. You are not a problem!!!

I read up to this point before I copied and pasted it. After I pasted it and read it again, I could remember it happening. I remember sitting in my chair in my room. I remember the feelings I was having. I remember what I had on. I remember not being able to sleep that night... Totally weird having those memories come flooding in. I might put more up later. I don't want to read anymore right now...

Guess I'll feed Molly. Wow! Sort or shaking a bit. Feel weak... Olivia went to the computer store to buy something for that computer she's working on. It's taking over the kitchen!!! She needs a workshop! I need a hug right now and for someone to hold me...