Magical Fail! and Vengeance on Me... Little Ole Me?

Oh this wonderful safe of mine. Looks normal, probably is. Waterproof. Fireproof. Magicproof... They sure didn't list that in the specs!!!

I went into the room off the garage and carefully opened it. I really can't remember what all is in here. What I saw blew me away... There on the top were my mortgage papers with the name C. Brendan McAdams on them - and I was freaking out... I just closed the safe door and sat there on the floor in front of it! Wow! So, the magic for some reason doesn't like to go through metal safe/locked boxes...
I opened it again. I slowly reached in and grabbed the packet and pulled it out. As soon as it was out, the name changed to C. Breeland McAdams and the house started to I guess shake. I threw it back in. That gave me a really weird feeling. Super creepy. What kind of forces am i really dealing with here... Had the little fine hairs on the back of my neck standing up...

Here was proof for Olivia. "Hey Olivia! If you're reading this, what's up girl!!!" Proof positive that I was magically changed. First the lockbox in my old room then this safe. Wow!!! I'm not gonna open it again until tomorrow. Maybe she can come over, and we can open it together. Well see after the meeting tomorrow!!!

I'm so freaked out right now. I sometimes visit these sites, more in the past than I do now as of this week, where they had captioned pics and stories depicting guys being turned into girls, for whatever reason. One of my favorite is Ecirava. I've even posted like 30 or so caps there myself!!! I remember reading a few of them on some sites where maybe a guy was to be granted a wish and he wanted to be a girl and have his identity match the girl and everyone remember him as the girl. In like most of these stories, if I remember correctly, the "magician" refused to do it because it would get messy. I knew this going in. I didn't care. It's getting messy. I can either look at this and be afraid or I can think of it as an adventure like no other... I mean who else has had this happen to them that I know about except like 2 other people... Me, Olivia and... Carolyn... She has read my blog and was transformed at the time she was reading it. She blames me and hates her new body and life. She says she's coming for me...

Just got back from getting ready to head out for a while and, here are the caps and comments on Ecirava... I had to get down and dirty with this bitch!!! She better be ready if she comes for me!!!

I believe it'd be best to enlarge them to view... So, yeah. Got this to deal with too!!!

Enought dwelling on this. Going to a club to see hear some music! Heading to Tobacco Road, a place where my band's played a good bit. We have a pretty good following there. Hopefully somebody good will be playing tonight. I need some good music. One good thing about music, when it hits you fell no pain! So hit me with music!!! - Bob M.

And Carolyn!!!

Until tomorrow!!! (So happy. Olivia!!!)

                                                                                          

7th Morning as Bree! 7 is My Favorite Number!!!

Has it really been a week! This is just a quick post on me being Bree for a week this morning. Slept so well last night! Woke up with sleep lines all over my front side and left side of my face! Well, got up and showered and did make up and hair. I still can't believe what a difference doing make-up and hair can make. I'm getting so used to seeing myself all made-up now. I just love doing it. So much fun. I'm getting quite good and proficient at it as well! Of course I took pics! Do you really need to wonder?

Pic 1. Just woke up. Pic 2. Make-up and wet hair. Pic 3. Completed look!
Also did a quick photoshopping of the pic... Added an overlay layer... Hope you like it!

Off to work now! Hoping for a drama free day! As if!!! Laters!

                                                                                       

Morning, Work, McDonald's and Met First Fan As the New Me and then Work Again...

Woke up this morning all perky and ready to go! Thought about just going like last week, but decided to go on ahead and do some make-up and hair. I set my alarm 30 minute earlier in case I made myself get up and do this. So, here are the results... 

Before (duh!)

After (really Bree, are you serious? that's after the makeup? I had no idea... lol!)

On to work...

Got two deadlines this week and my boss just came to check on progress. He's a good friend of mine. We used to hang out a lot. And, now that I'm a girl, I hope it won't get all weird. This conversation was  somewhat normal. That's a good sign! One of the jobs was designing a CD jacket and disc cover for a band. I got that mostly finished before lunch and decided to go out and grab some food. Something cheap today and the closest, cheap place was McDonalds. 

I was about to go through the Drive-Thru but decided to go in for some reason. Better chance of geting my order right if I go in! I ordered my usual, Double Cheeseburger Meal, no onions and extra pickles. Dr. Pepper with no ice!!! I got my food and sat down and it was the best meal I'd ever had. These new taste buds really set stuf off! I was finishing up and I heard someone say hello... It was a very attractive girl, actually really hot!!! She looked familiar but I couldn't tell where I'd seen her before. She said her name was umm... Olive or Olivia.. Yeah, Olivia... I think... I have a terrible memory when it comes to names. Anywhoo, she said she's been to a show or two and saw my band play and she really liked our sound. She said it was awesome how good I could play and that it was unusual to see a girl in a band, and as lead guitarist at that. We chatted a bit more and then she said goodbye and that hopefully she'd see me around sometime at a show. I told her that I thought our next show was at Stokies on the 31st, but I could be wrong. She said she'd check out the Stokies website! Wow! My first fan as Bree. And a really good looking one at that! Back at work. Better stop blogging for now. Workday almost over. I'm so ready to get home and relax. Gonna play some guitar. Got a riff in my head. Just recorded it into my phone, humming it with my mouth. 

I also used to go to the gym and work out sometimes or swim in the pool there or play a pick-up game of basketball.  I guess I can still do that stuff, too. I might try it tonight, at least go to the gym, maybe. Too many cheeseburgers in the last two days. If I keep this up, I'm gonna get super fat!!! Laters!

                                                                                                  

Internet Down or Loving Me Some Weekends!

(sorry... internet down most of the day...)

Oh Yeah. This is the life. Guess what??? Woke up with a hot girl in my bed this morning... she was ME!!! lol!

Still sort of a shock waking up to so many new tactile sensations flooding my brain. This body is so much more sensitive than my old guy one. And, I love that about it. It was nice this morning to have some time to just wake up and take some time to just really get to know this body. My legs are so amazing. So soft and smooth, especially after I shaved them last night. I took a long, hot bath right before bed... I just get under the covers and roll around and kick and flip around feeling them rubbing against the sheets! It is just absolutely amazing. My butt is super nice as well! God I love turning around and looking back at it. Or turning around and looking at my backside in my full length mirror. It's just perfect. The perfect upside-down heart shape that I've always loved! It's so soft and squeezable! I love just rubbing it and kneading my fingers into it. Oh oh... getting a bit turned on... I also love the little dimples in the small of my back, right above my butt when I turn a certain way.! So sexy!!! Enough of this... dang! Here's a pic! Enjoy!!!

God, look at my butt. I love my ass!!!

After I finally dragged my "amazing" butt out of the bed, I decided to try my hand at some make-up and hair doing and get out of the house for a little while today. I didn't go to the youtube videos this time either. Just need to do this myself. Figuring things out myself in the past have always helped me learn faster so why would this be any different? So... after a few tries and many make-up remover wipes in the trash, I got the minimal/clean look down. I did use a little more eyeliner and mascara than the video suggested but I really like how my eyes look when they are really defined. I think I did a pretty good job anyway... Curley hair looks pretty good again as well. You be the judge. Let me know!

Anyway, I made a PB&J with milk, threw on a shirt and jeans and then headed out to a new thrift store that I saw opened up down the road. It seemed like it would be cool. Kinda graffiti lettering on the logo with cool, old-school designs on the building. It consisted of about 4 portable buildings all combined together into one store... It sure looked interesting to say the least. I went in and right there when you walk in, on a manakin, was this amazing dress... OMG! I had to try it on... It was from a very popular TV show back in the 60s. Just take a look! I think it is really vintage!

Pretty sweet, huh? Oh, and by the way, I take my little camera with me everywhere now!

Also got a little, cute hair thingy clip thing. Might look good with a swim-suit when/if I ever get to the beach this year...

I bought one more dress but I'm gonna save those pics. It is absolutely gorgeous and damn sexy. I mean super, big time, damn sexy. I think it was from the same person as the Batman one. Vintage again I think! And, I definitely paid for them. $225 for the Batman one and $175 for the other one. But, hey, I can splurge for the new me, right? I'm telling you, the other one made me look unbelievable!!! I can't wait to wear it out sometime. Maybe me and Tiffany can go out one night, with some work people or something. I really want her to see me in it real bad!!!

Anyway, the rest of the day, I just shopped. Went to the mall and mainly browsed. I kept the hairbow in. I really like it! I had heads turning almost all day. Guys and girls. What an amazing feeling. I wore my skinny jeans today - my dark blue ones. They make my butt look amazing. When I saw someone looking, I put an extra little sway in my walk. lol! So fun to do. Teasing the boys with something they'll never get. There were a couple girls that I checked me out that I would love to have them put their hands on my ass as I wiggle it around. But, again, not to good at telling if the girls were checking me out because of how I look sexually or how I look and judging me. It just felt good to get out and around society again. I felt like me and it was great. I talked to people, random people. Like in line at the food court. I would have never done that before. It was nice... I'm think I'm tearing up a bit...

However this happened, thank you, magical force. 

I'm so happy now. 

When you wish upon a star, your dreams come true - finally!!!

Well, big day tomorrow. Band practice was moved from friday to tomorrow at 7 and before that, I'm going over to my parents house for lunch and dinner. First time rehearsing and I haven't seen my parents since the change either, or the band guys. Should be interesting, especially with what my mom told me today on the phone... Get this. This is what my dad said to me on the phone when he answered!  

"Bree!!! Hey! How's my baby-girl doing?" i was so happy!!! i'm his baby girl now!!!

My dad is really cool. We used to always do stuff together - baseball games, football games, camping, went to concerts! I hope he still thinks that even now that I'm a girl, I still like those things... Not that anything has changed according to him... Gender wise that is... 

My mom said that David, a guy that lived down the street from us asked her about me a few days ago. I was like, "Umm, David, he's like 24 and... oh my." She said he wanted to hang out and stuff... She told him that she thinks I'm gonna come over there for a little while on Sunday. He's gonna come over at some point she said. Wonder what he wants to do? I hope he doesn't start hitting on me. I mean, he's a super nice guy, but... ya know - I swing the other way. I don't want to have to shoot him down. We used to hang out and throw football or play basketball some when I still lived there. He was 5 or 6 years younger than me then I think... Now I guess we are about the same age. I don't even know if I can still throw a football... Oh GOD, what if I throw like a "girl"???? EEKKK!!! Well, sitting here in the chair, my motion still feels pretty good. Boobs kinda make it feel different. Sitting here topless with only panties and socks on, pretending to throw a football!!! Boobs going everywhere - sure do wiggle and move when was pretending to throw... What a great feeling!!!  I bet I'm a sight! Should be able to throw though, I guess... I hope!

Well, This went on for a long time... Sorry, kinda. This blog is just as much for me as it is for the people who are hopefully reading it. Writing this is a pleasure! Tearing up again! Damn/wonderful hormones!!! Well, I'm sure I forgot something but, I'll catch it up tomorrow if I remember anything! Off to bed I go. Might just sleep in the buff tonight!!! Oh man... Tiffany. Her face just popped into my mind. Hope I get to sleep soon...

                                                                                 

Posted at 1:04 am...

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Long Day.

So glad it's the weekend! Just some good time to relax and reflect on what all's happened this week. I mean, I freaking changed gender for christ's sake. Oh My Flipping Gosh!!!, I'm a girl with all the girl parts that girls have!!! So crazy. I so love mirrors now. I 'm gonna buy two or three for every room. And, is it bad if you turn yourself on? Damn! I mean, maybe the house of mirrors is a bad idea. lol. I might never get anything done!

Well, I did do some shopping today. Got a few things. Went to Kohls and American Eagle. Bought some stuff that wasn't t-shirts and jeans. Also went to the mall to stop by Victoria's Secret. Only bought a few things but they're super sexy. Pictured is the sexy, lace, strapless black bra from there. I did buy a few bras at Kohls as well. I hope they fit. Here's the bra from VS and the sleep-pants in the pic are from Kohls. They're silk and feel so good! Maybe later for the rest of the VS stuff...

Good thing I have a little money in savings becausea lot of the stuff I want to get is expensive. I guess me as a girl has expensive taste. Got some girl products as well at Wal-Mart, razors, deodorant (I don't stink though...) and other stuff.

I can't quit thinking about Tiffany. I just don't really know what these feelings I have for her are right now. I mean, if I'd been with her as a guy today, I'd definitely think there was a spark between us. If I was a guy, I'd surly be wanting to have sex with her. I think deep down, I really want that now as well! She was so amazing and all my free time has been spent thinking about her since we had lunch. My head is still tingling from her styling my hair!!! I have to play this one smart. I hope I can. I mean, how, as a girl, do you find out if a girl is a lesbian... I might google it! Ha!

Well, it's super late and I'm really tired. Just got out of a hot bath and I'm feeling super chill right now. Should be asleep in no time! So it's off to bed for Bree! One last sleepy pic of me curled up on my bed. I'm wearing a new, blue tank top from Kohls. Nothing special but it's so comfy!

Nighty Night everyone!

                                                                       

(This was actually posted at 2:39 am)

F'n Overslept... Big Time!

The title says it all... NO time for cute little write up or sleepy pic this morning. Supposed to be at work at 8:15, didn't wake up until 8:38. Had to get ready and a 15 or so minute drive (with no traffic) so got there around 9:27-ish.

Felt like the walk of shame making my way through the building... Just wanted to get up to my office and sit down. Had a few things to get finished today, so I got right to work. Client A needed some business cards for their business, kinda grundge/cool looking,  and Client B needed photos edited for posters to hang up in their "hipster" coffee bar. They also wanted us/me to print them, 24x36.

Right before lunch, Tiffany came up to my office and asked if I wanted to go to lunch with her and Stephanie. They both work down in copy/editing. I said sure, kinda nonchalantly but on the inside was screaming, "Hell Yes!!!" I was so happy! It was around 11:15 and I had just gotten the cards finished and then went down to the copy room to see if she was ready. She was just proofing the final pages of a workbook of some kind and said she was ready to go and that Steph had to go get her kid from school because he was sick. So... looks like just me and Tiffany going to eat! Totally cool with me!

We went to a little cafe called Cafe Bastille. We ate on the patio and just "girl talked" a bit. I got the Smoked Salmon Benedict on a croissant and then got the Mini Chocolate Souffle for desert. It was so good... I'm gonna get so fat! Too bad we didn't have more time to hang out. I had a really great time. She asked me if I was ok... kinda caught me off guard. She said that I seemed to be off the last two days, like I wasn't myself or something... Boy, she didn't know how right she was. I just told her I was going through something right now and that things were getting better. I had been fidgeting with my hair a bit and some had started falling out of my pony tail. She asked me if I wanted her to fix it, that she loves to do hair. I said yes and it was heavenly having her play with my hair. Quite sensual actually! She was the first person to touch me since the change... I was putty in her hands, and she was only touching my hair and head. She put it into an up-do/bun/ponytail thing. It looked cute!!! We headed back to work and said our goodbyes at my stairs and agreed to do it again, soon! She also said if I ever needed anything to just let her know.

So... I just went down to the stock/store room and took a little pic of myself... Yep, minimal make-up and black shirt again... Kinda becoming my new normal. Gotta go shopping today... Hopefully after work, I can find some time...

Looks cute, doesn't it... Well, i better get back to work... More to come hopefully tonight!

                                                                      

Thank God for Youtube!

Well, Bree here again! Had a chill night of relaxing! Watched some NatGeo Wild and some X Games Barcelona... yep, I still like that stuff, and ate some leftover Hamburger Helper that I made for dinner on Tuesday... It was ok. Threw the rest out! Wow, that was my last meal as a guy on Tuesday night!!! Good riddance Hamburger Helper and good riddance the guy me! Lol!

Well, anyway, I decided to in fact work on make-up and hair. I watched a few youtube tutorials for "bare minimum coverage" and/or "The Clean and Fresh Look" and this is what I came up with...

click here to see the make-up tutorial - Simple and Clean Tutorial

click here to see the hair tutorial - Hair Curling Tutorial

Not bad for a first try I'd say! I bought a curling iron at Wal-Mart and a straightener and got my hair to look somewhat presentable. Wow! If I'm gonna look like this everyday, I'm gonna have to get up like 30 minutes earlier than I used to... Wow, the price girls pay to look good I guess! lol! And, I don't know why I spend like 30 minutes looking at myself in mirrors when i see my reflection... Wow, am I turning vain or what!?!?!?

Well, I better take a shower and wash this face paint off... Shower time is so fun!!! And tomorrow, I plan on going clothes shopping!!! Woo hoo! I need some better bras, too. I'm so glad I wore a black shirt today to work. Nips were poking through that little thin cotton bra I wore today like crazy... Maybe I'll go to a department store and get fitted by someone... ;) well, if the bra fitter is hot anyway! I'm so bad!!! lol!

Nighty Night!!! 

                                                                           

Work, Work, Work!

Work, work, work... Well, my first day at work, as Bree, was truly something. It wore me out, fo rizzle.

I was so glad to get home and just literally let my hair down! That ponytail gave me a mild headache all day. Work today was nothing really out of the ordinary per se, but just a little harder "keeping up with appearances" I guess. Just stares and such from both guys and girls... I'm not used to that yet. One good thing about work is where my office is. It's around a corner and up two flights of stairs. I'm the only person upstairs for most of the day. So... I have time to do, really, for the most part, what I want to without being seen - if you catch my drift. There were parts of the day when I just couldn't keep my hands off myself. I'll have to remember to bring extra panties with me on a daily basis, at least for the near future. During lunch, I went to a drugstore and bought some make-up essentials - lipstick, eyeliner, mascara and powder. I bought some different eye make-up as well, but didn't apply any yet. I have some of the new make-up on in the above pic. Not much, because I didn't want to overdo it cause I don't really know what I'm doing in that area of womanhood as of yet. Lipstick in the pic seems to be all but gone now that I'm home... I guess i need to buy some that stays on longer. Really, I love my "clean" look. Might just go with it the rest of the week. I also think that I could look really hot with make-up done right, like in my license pic. We'll see I guess!

Back to work... Here's the crazy part about work. I mean, there are some guys at work that I used to hang out with... I could tell when our paths crossed today that they were somewhat confused. I mean, do they now have memories of us hanging out with me as a girl? I really have no idea how to interact with them. It's just a little awkward. Not to be bragging on my looks, especially today, but I wonder if they're thinking, "I've known her since I've worked her and when did she get so attractive" or "Wow, Bree looks really good... who knew?" I tryed to just act like I always do with people for the most part. I usually joke around and stuff so I did some of that, but I could tell things were different. I hope it gets back to a more normal feeling around the firm.

And the girls, the women... Just looking me up and down. Like saying, "Girl, who do you think you are coming around here looking like that." I'll have to admit, and not trying to brag, but I look better with crazy hair and no make-up on than most of them do fully made up! Kinda funny that they think I'm now on their turf in the dating field. I wonder when they'll realize they can have all the guys for themselves!!! Now, there are a few nice girls at work. Tiffany is cool. We have the same tastes in music and she's been to some of my bands shows. And Laura, she was nice today. We did a little chit-chat after lunch. She's pretty hot too!

Anyway, gonna wind down a bit and watch some TV... I might try to practice on my make-up a bit so you might see a pic or two of that up before I head off to bed. Laters!

                                                

When I Woke Up This Morning, Something Was Different... Well, Actually, Everything Was Different!!!

I didn't feel like I slept that much when I finally opened my eyes. My sheet and blanket were a tangled mess all around me. I felt small or short or something. My head was on my pillow but my feet were too far up the bed. Also, it felt like my boxers were super tight and riding up my butt crack. Damn I was disoriented too! Kinda dizzy... My chest felt the strangest. It felt like I was laying on a roll of bunched up sheet/blanket or a piece of laundry I missed when putting it away, but it was softer - maybe like laying on two water balloons right about where a woman's breasts would be... strange sensation. I lifted my head and black hair swished into my eyes. I lifted up on my arms, i was on my stomach, and brushed it back out of my face only to feel something on my my chest move slightly along with my arm and upper body. It felt like I had two weights on my chest, and they both had super-sensitive parts that reacted very strangely from the cool air from my room hitting them now that they weren't planted deeply in the warm sheets of my bed. It was the strangest sensation feeling my now, apparently, much larger nipples getting hard coupled together with these two new masses of sensitive flesh hanging down from my chest, still slightly swaying every-time I took a breath - breaths that were by this point coming at a much more rapid pace. I looked at smaller my arms, wondering how much longer they could hold me up as they started to shake and give way, not only from my the strain of holding me up these past few minutes, but also from what's starting to register in my brain as to what's happened to me - as I slowly wake up from last nights slumber. As I continue to gain awareness, I come to the conclusion that, overnight, I've grown long, black hair, my arms are much smaller and it seems that I have breasts attached to my chest. As the sun shows it's arrival by slowly filling my bedroom with light, I even notice that my eyes see differently. Things are "bluer" than before. The "morning" taste in my mouth is even different, more pungent - I guess I'm not used to the taste. I'm not sure that I even brushed my teeth last night. I decided to trace my new shape to be sure what I thought was happening was indeed happening. I also needed to see if something else is still there... My heart is racing as I ground my crotch into the mattress  Usually my morning wood is at full attention by this point. But pressing down, I didn't feel what I usually feet, only a different sensation showed up, maybe a better sensation. I could tell that there was a void there between my legs - an alarming emptiness that my brain hadn't fully figured out how to react to. I kept grinding and grinding... God, this felt good. I was about to reach down and really confirm what I thought had formed there overnight, but as my hand felt this foreign slit through my "panties," the alarm went off and scared my to death. "Shit," I said aloud, hearing my voice for the first time. I covered my mouth and smiled. It had happened. It had to have. I mean... that star.. last night. "Oh My God... I'm a girl. Is it true? Mirror!!!" I jumped off the bed almost falling because of my shortened stature and different center of gravity. Boobs were jiggling up-down-left-right. I grabbed them and held them in place against my chest - feeling my sensitive nipples rubbing against my dainty girly hands causing me to get even more horny. My hair was everywhere. I felt my butt jiggle. The whole time, I'm looking myself over - frontside then backside. "Wow, my ass looks huge," I said as I reached the bathroom mirror and slowly opened my eyes to see myself for the first time.

It was like time stood still. My eyes seemed to open in 1/4 time. "Oh My God," I said. "This is me...?!?!"

I ran back through my room (in only panties), into my office and grabbed my little point and shoot, ran back to my bedroom and sat back on the bed and took this first pic. As I took it, I wispered, "Oh my God, I'm taking a pic of a naked chick, this is crazy. What the hell..." So, my expression was kinda bad...

...so I laid down on the bed, relaxed a bit and took the one below... 

Much better, wouldn't you say! 

(little bit of nip showing... hehe... you're welcome)

I rolled around on the bed just feeling quite giddy and took some more shots... (ask nicely and I may show them on here later... They're pretty hot!) It was amazing how smooth my skin was to the touch, especially my legs. I rolled around on my belly and felt my boobs brushing up against the covers as they shot foreign sensations down to my new girl parts. I reached over and grabbed one and played with it. I could feel myself getting wet. It felt so good, absolutely amazing. I just lay there, pondering what was to become of me and this new life. I mean, was I still me to everyone else? Just maybe the girl me? That's it! I think I wished for that. What was my name now? How old am I? I sure looked younger than I was as a guy. Then I thought about my drivers license... That would tell everything I needed to know. I hopped up and damn, I was wet. I guess all that booby manipulation caused more girl juices to flow than I had though. All cool with me!!! Even that bodily function was turning me on in my mind, a lot... As I walked to get my wallet, my hand found it's way to my vagina for really the first time. I walked/hopped and felt myself up and my mind was going crazy-wild. These sensations were incredible, almost too much to handle... I was trembling as I found my wallet which was now in a little clutch/purse thingy. I opened my wallet... and with a slightly damp right hand flipped it to my license and was shocked and amazed. 

I nearly fell over... I was Bree. Bree is me... God, I looked so good in that pic. I just couldn't believe it. I looked completely made-up in that pic. Wow! I was shaking from seeing that pic and reading the info... (Wait... the girl me rides motorcycles as well?) I checked my bag for my work badge. There it was with a pic of the girl me and Bree McAdams written right under it. OMG!!! I was Bree to everyone!!! I started to cry but composed myself long enough to call work and tell them I was sick and that the few things I had to do today I could do from home (maybe). Helen from HR said "Ok, Miss McAdams, I'll let Josh and Davey know. Hope you feel better." I hung up and was physically and mentally exausted. My body didn't want to move from the shock of all of this but I somehow made my way back to my bed and crashed. I just lay there, on my back staring at the ceiling for a while. I then started to run my hands along every inch of my body, just feeling my soft, smooth skin. I don't know how long I was at this. I lost track of time. The texture of my skin was like lightly dragging a finger over a pool of silently, still water. At this point I was so turned on that I knew what was next. I went for it... full force. My self-foreplay had done it's job well. It didn't take long. (Sorry for lack of details... Not comfortable sharing that now for some reason... Maybe later... ;)) I came three times before Noon. I'll leave it at that for now. (Contact me  for more info, I guess... lol!) Then I fell asleep and woke up around 7:15pm... I woke up with quite a bodily unclean feeling, I was hungry and I really need to pee. My bladder won first place so I put the lid down (new for peeing) an sat down and let it  flow. It was similar to peeing as a guy but was more of a spray and I didn't have much control. I wiped, another thing guys don't have to do. I threw my panties into the corner and got the water running and while it heated up, I looked at myself in the mirror again and started to cry. Tears of joy, but I wept no less. I hopped into the shower, sobbing, and washed myself slowly and carefully. I spent a good while in the shower... I'll just leave it at that. Hunger drove me out so I rinsed off, grabbed my towel and dried off and hopped out wrapping the towel around my small female body. I was so hungry!!! I went and got a t-shirt that I still hoped fit the new, girl me. It did! Woo hoo! I wasn't sure about underwear so I opened the drawer and mixed in the drawer were a few pairs of panties, maybe two thin cotton bras along with some briefs and boxers that I never wore that much as a guy... I've always thought girls in actual boy briefs were sexy so I grabbed a pair and put them on. It's so amazing not having that damn thing between my legs anymore. The feeling of material fitting snug up against my vagina felt amazing! I grabbed a newly transformed grey tank-top out of the drawer to complete my bedtime ensemble and headed to the kitchen.

So here I am now. Eating a Red Barron Deep Dish Pepperoni Pizza and drinking some Dr. Pepper while finishing up this last blog on my first day as Bree. I can't wait for the rest of my life! So different from how I felt as I was getting ready to go to sleep yesterday. I guess I have to go to work tomorrow!?!?!? That should be interesting... Well, still, I can't wait for tomorrow and what all will happen. And, I can't wait to tell all of you about it! Sweet dreams!

                                                                 

My Backstory... If You Care To Read It.

Have you ever woken up and something was totally different? Like maybe you were at a friends house and you woke up and were totally confused as to where you were. That can be so freaky! Or say you woke up in a hotel room you were staying in or a relatives house and it scared you to death until you woke up and realized your surroundings... I remember one time I woke up and had forgotten to take gum out of my mouth (probably to lazy to get up and put it in the trash) and thought the roof of my mouth was really swollen when in fact it was just the gum. Or, you slept in a strange position and a foot, hand or whole arm/leg was asleep. Well, those are all weird and strange things that can happen to someone, an event that I'm sure happens all over the world, everyday. But, those events aren't worth writing a blog over, right? So, I guess I'll let you know the reason I'm writing this blog.

Hey! I'm writing now as Brendan McAdams and last night, when I went to bed, I was a guy. Just a normal guy - 32 years old, average build but kinda bummed out on life. I wasn't a ladies man. I mean I had a few girlfriends, but I was scared of commitment and scared they'd just dump me if things got too serious so I never really pursued them much. I've gained some weight and was really out of shape as of the last 6 or 7 years and that's not something I'm happy about. I consider myself pretty athletic so this physical decline was really terrible for me, even if it is kinda of my own doing. I do have a pretty cool car though. It's a black, 2012 Mazdaspeed 3. It's pictured below with a couple of my friends cars on May the Fourth when we had a Star Wars movie party! My car can so smoke their cars!!!

And, I just bought a small house and I'm fixing it up!!! It's also in the pic, well the garage is... Another good thing was I had a decent job as a graphic designer at a fairly big design company. 

It let's me buy just about anything I want, within reason. They're very flexible with my hours, thank god and really only care that I get my work done on time. I'm also in a band. I play a Gibson Les Paul though an Orange Rockverb 50 through a 2x12 silver orange cab. I have various pedals too! I also dabble a little in photography. My primary rig are my Canon 60D, EFS 17-55 2.8 lens, and two 430ex speedlights.

Now here's the kicker...

I have terribly low self esteem. I seem to be ok, and try to be the life of the party and make everyone laugh so no one really knows it. I hide it well. I've never really liked myself that much. I mean, I think I have a great personality, but I've always been really bummed out about my body. Skinny as a rail growing up. Teased horribly. Really made me hate my body. Started feeling better about it during puberty... lol. But, still got made fun of during those years so the self-depression continued. In college, I remember having sex for the first time. While it was nice, it seemed so much better for the girl I was with at the time... That just added to my dislike for my body which turned into a dislike for the male body in general. The following times I've had sex have just been affirmation upon affirmation about what I was thinking I wanted to happen. If there was a way to switch genders, I would surely do it. I wanted to be a girl. I've looked up spells on the net, tried to summon spirits (even... demons) and tons of other stuff... none of which worked. So, last night, I was looking out my living room window, dreaming about life as a girl and saw a shooting star blazing across the dark, star-filled night sky. I wanted to just dismiss what I felt I wanted to do, which was to wish upon it, but I decided, what the hell, I've done everything else - what's it gonna hurt! Here's what I said... 

It's something that I'll never forget:

"I wish to be a beautiful girl. Fun-loving, full of life. A free spirit. Still me in personality, but a girl me. And, I want my clothes to still fit me as a girl, especially my favorite clothes! And, I want my identity to change magically... and... also, I would like to..." 

I hung my head down, stopping my "wish." I felt so stupid. My hopes were up in the stratosphere but I'd come to realize that I couldn't trust a hope. They were forsaken in these lands. It seemed it would be my lot in life to suffer. So, to bed I went - depressed and sad that I thought a stupid wish on a star could so radically change my helpless reality. Then, this morning, I awoke...