Show on Tuesday in Ft. Lauderdale

We've got a show in Ft. Lauderdale in Tuesday at the Culture Room. Pretty cool venue. Can't wait to rock it out!!!

By the way, this is Olivia's old room which is now the junk room... Single tear for Olivia. I do still miss her... :(

About to go over to Tonya's and go lay out for a bit! Supposed to be about 82 today and sunny so a perfect day to catch some rays and not get too hot doing it! WOOT! 

Two full days of stuff going on!!!

I'm exhausted... From yesterday and today, I need a break, a vacation... something! Alcohol!!! More alcohol!!!

I just got in from recording and I'll try to recap...

The rest of Monday...
I went over to Tonya's and we ran a little (and walked a lot!). She ran as much as she could and then we would walk! And thank god for that, it's not like I'm in the greatest shape either. I was huffing and puffing enough to blow down a little pig's house myself!!! I got her to take a few shots of me running so I could post them on here so Carolyn could see them and see me exercising... We ran at a park near Tonya's condo complex... A lot of people run there...

I thought this girl was stalking me. She was running really close to me the whole time. Actually freaked Tonya out too!
Turns out she recognized me and wanted to meet me. Her name is Janice and she just started playing guitar and had seen one of my bands shows. She was pretty soon but a little creepy at first.

As much as I hate running, I had a pretty good time  running with Tonya. It's always better running with someone else.

After that, Tonya was really too tired to go over  to Mom and Dad's. She just wanted  to rest so I promised her I'd bring her some casserole back with me. I headed over to my parents house and jumped in the pool first thing before I even said hey to them. I really love swimming. Being alone in the pool around evening time is so relaxing. Luke got there for dinner and we ate and then watched some TV and then I headed back to Tonya's... And we had some fun!!! Long awaited fun!!! I guess she got rested up enough while I was gone! We had the place all to ourselves and we, well, tried out every room!!! Hee hee!

Nice coming home to this!
Snapped this pic in the living room as she was pulling the curtains shut!!! Hot Mama!!!

So today, I got up, uuuggggg, and went to work. I worked straight until 3pm-ish and then had to be at the studio for tracking and "vocals" around 3:30. Hit Mcdonald's drive-thru and got a mean and ate in the car on the way to the studio. John finally had the drums down for the first three somgs and was tracking the 4th one and was actually doing quite better when I got there. Having to stay on beat was keeping him more in the pocket, which is a good thing for him! I played on three more songs and then went into the vocal booth to track my first ever vocals with the band on a recording! Exciting! Never got to do this when I was Brendan, but, we had just really started out when we put that EP out so...

Had a little meeting with Josh about how we thought things were going and then headed back to Tonya's place. Super long day. Gonna watch some ESPN U and see what, if anything, they're saying about the 'Canes. Could be another long year... We have Florida in week 2. The 'big, bad SEC..."

Well, about to hit the shower and then try to convince Tonya to switch channels from the History channel to ESPN.

Laters!!!

Poolside Relaxation!

I took some time off from recording today to hang out with Tonya. We decided to go down to the pool at her apartment and relax a bit. Heather and Jess went out of town, I think they went to some skate shop in Orlando or somewhere like that. Then they were maybe going to Disney World to celebrate Heather's big win! Fun, fun, fun!!! (Borrowing money from Tonya!!!)

So... the deal about today! And what a doozy!

Tonya hasn't been going out much lately, last time was the competition, and she wanted to go down to the complex pool and swim and hang out. I thought that was a great idea so we got our bikinis on and, well, first Ozzy stole my top and ran around the place with it before Tonya got it back, and then we headed down to the pool. I swear that dog likes to see my tits!!! I mean, I guess they are kinda nice!!!

I took this pic for reference, to back up what I just wrote! Hee hee!

As soon as we got there, Ozzy jumped in the water and man, he can really swim! It was great to see Tonya just relax and float around the pool! She's getting better by the day! Woo hoo! Can't wait to have some other types of fun with her soon!!! Anyway, then we hear it... clicking sounds from the bushes. I know those sounds quite well. Someone's taking pics of us. Now, while it's quite flattering to have paparazzi following us around, I still don't want my pic taken while swimming around in this private pool.

I still wasn't in the pool yet, sitting on the edge, so I dried off my feet and put my All Stars back on and walked rather quickly over to the bushes and I saw some movement. A guy popped up and looked really guilty.

"What in the hell!!!" I jump over the fence and he has to reach down and get his other camera and I kick the camera that he's holding out of his hand.

Tonya got out of the pool. "I might look like shit but we'll kick your ass for doing this. This is a private pool!"

"You bitch!!! That's $8000 you kicked to the ground!!!"

"I know." *I then spun around and windmill kicked him in the face and he stumbled over and fell into the building, crashing the camera he just picked up into the wall.* "Tonya, please stay back!!! I got this!"

"I should get a couple hits if he is going to publish pictures of us but ok."

I picked up one of the cameras and got the memory cards out and slipped them into my bikini bottom. I walked up to him and held my hand out* "Give me the damn camera!"

"Hell no, crazy woman! Get away from me!"

*He tries to get up but I grabbed his hair and jerked him back down and kicked him in the kidney. I wrestle with him trying to get the camera and he hit me in the face with the camera. Luckily, I still had the sunglasses on so it wasn't bad but that pissed me off really badly. I punched him in the face twice and the third time he actually dodged it and I fell forward because of my momentum and tripped over him and landed on the ground next to him. I tried to quickly get up but he got on top of my and I'm was then fighting him while he's punching at my face and neck and chest... He raises up to punch my in the face and when he does, I'm able to lift my knee up and rammed it into his balls really hard. His punch does connect, hitting me really good in the left cheek but he's in more pain than me. I rolled him off me, grab the other camera, take the card out and slip it into my bottom. I then throw the camera at his face and he turns his head just in time and it hits his ear and the back of his head.* "Asshole!!! God damned asshole!!! You're gonna wish you never came here!!!" 

"Who are you and why are you here?"

"He's just probably a free lance paparazzi hired to take pics of maybe you because of what happened at your fight... He's probably been steaked out here for a few days..."

'Is this true?"

He rolls around a bit more then grunts out. "The other bitch was right! I was hired to take pics of you after you got your ass kicked. People wanna see pics of hot girls and models who got the shit beat out of them. It sells magazines!!! And you a model and boxer, double the money for me!!!"


"Be grateful she is not letting me kick your ass. I might be in pain but I know I can still do it."

"Give him a little kick..." Tonya went over and kicked him the stomach. "Fell better, Tonya?"

"Yes but if I ever seem him again I will shove his camera up his ass."

"Ouch! But it's all good, I have the cards in my bikini bottom here. Those pics won't be published anywhere."

With that, he got up and limped to the gate and left the complex... We swam for a little bit more and then went inside... Crazy, crazy, crazy!!!

We just got our dinner and sat down to watch Jeopardy!!! I always beat her at Jeopardy. She get's lucky sometimes though... Maybe she'll also get 'lucky' tonight!!! hee hee!

*I pick up one of the cameras and get the memory cards out and slip them into my bikini bottom. I walk up to him and hold my hand out* "Give me the damn camera!

Time to Celebrate the 4th!

Mom wanted everyone there early to hang and play games! They always try to make it fun, which it usually is! If it's one thing the McAdams are all about, it's fun involving games and competition! As soon as we got there, I saw dad in the garage and me and O went to chat. He was already going through the fireworks and I'll have to say that it was the most that he's ever bought!

"Dad! What in the world! Did you buy out a whole stand or something!?!?"

"Well hey there Bree! And how are you miss Olivia?"

"Doing good dad!"

"Me too Mr. McAdams!"

"I bought all these so we can compete with the Russels next door and win this time! I figured that we could all shoot. I think Thomas is coming sometime today to stay a few days. You up for some good ole firework neighbor competition, Olivia?"

"You bet! I love shooting fireworks!"

"Good to hear! Well, these are now all sorted and I have to go back in and help the Mrs. get dinner going and get the grill cleaned and ready. See you girls around!" He walked by me and gave me a kiss just as Luke walked in the garage.

"I bet he never did that to you as Brendan... Hey there.. Olivia!"

"Nope! He sure didn't!"

"Hey Luke. What's up?"

"Not much. What are you two about to do?"

"Swim, maybe. Is the floating goal in the water yet this year?"

"I just put it in! When Tommy gets here we can play some 2 - 2 but until then we can just swim or play 21..."

"Sounds like fun! We'll go change!"

"Yep. Let's go change!"

"See ya in tha pool!"

We went up to my old room and changed and ended up playing a little "purple nurple" on my old bed. With that game, I don't think there's ever a winner. All parties involved end up with sore, red, painful nipples. Fun though... kinda! ;)

We got in the pool, which was surprisingly warm, and started horsing around. Olivia just wanted to swim for the time being so me and Luke played some 1-1 on the floating goal. He won, dammit. He's so much taller than me now! Not too bad though... 15-10... Played one more game... worse... 15-8... We swam a little more and then O wanted to go lay out for a little while. Luke said he would too so we all dried off and headed for some lounge chairs.

Muh legs getting some Florida sunshine!!!

Thomas got there finally, pullin up in his new Defender 90. He came straight over to me, picked me up and threw me in the pool! I was kicking and screaming but he's just too big and strong for me to do anything about it!

He did a hulk pose and then Luke said, "You're sooooo strong Tommy! She weighs like what, a buck 15? Why don't you try to do that to me?"

"Ok! I will!" He walked over and Luke got up and they started to try to throw each other in the pool. Neither one seemed to have the upper hand from my vantage point dog-paddling in the deep-end. They were getting real close to the edge but no one was in yet. Olivia quitely got up and walked over to them. They didn't even see her. She just easily pushed them both in at the same time!!!

Everyone there cheered for her! "I win!" She then took a bow and then did a cannon ball into the deep-end right near me.

"Great job! Well done!"

"Thanks!"

"We played some 2-2 after that. Me and Luke against Olivia and Thomas. It was the closest game ever in McAdams history. We played to 15 and you had to win by two. The final score was... 28-26 in favor of... ME AND LUKE!!! Woo hoo!!! Olivia really surprised me with how good she was! You go girl! Right after the game ended, mom yelled out that it was time to eat.

The food was incredible! Salad with 3 different kinda of homemade dressing, grilled corn on the cob, french fries, burgers, steak, hotdogs and homemade ice cream and a Lemon Meringue pie for dessert! So glad I went to the gym this morning! Now, I'm gonna have to go 5 times tomorrow to work off all this food!

We finished eating and then chatted until we heard something next door... the Russels had shot the first preliminary firework signaling the start of the 2013 McAdams/Russel Fireworks WAR!!! It was on!!!

We got set up fast. We all knew what to do. Battle stations were manned/wo-manned... Mortars were loaded! Rockets set up! Mom had the huge Roman Candles ready. Ready for the first round or Shock & Awe!!! 3... 2... 1... UNLEASH THE MADNESS!!!

We set it off and totally blew away the Russels this year! They never knew what hit them! Here's a pic of the grand finale!

So! As you can see. We really do it up well! The Russels ran out this year about the time we got ready for the finale. They came over and admitted defeat and then we all hung out for a little while.

David made his way over but mostly just hung out with Luke. We did talk, but I could tell he was being a little weird. I wonder if he's seen the pics in the magazine yet... He probably has.

Anyway, we were about to head in. The "kids" always watch Independence Day after fireworks on the big screen ini the den. McAdams and Russels alike! Even David stayed this year. He does sometimes but lately he hasn't.  I love that movie!!!

After the movie, it was time to go. Me and Olivia packed up our things, said our goodbyes and headed out. Dad stopped me and said that mom and him were going to take a vacation and to check up on the place while they were gone. They were leaving Monday night. I told them I would and we were off...

On the way home, as we were pulling in the driveway, I "popped" the question...

"So, Olivia, I was thinking..."

"Don't hurt yourself Breely!" She giggled.

"Ha ha... very funny. Why don't you just sell your apartment and move in? Most of your stuff is already here and you are here like 90% of the time. Just move in already! I'd really like that!"

"I've been thinking about that too, Bree. I just don't know. That's a big step... My old life was at that apartment. I don't know if I wanna give it up yet. Let me think about it and I'll get back to you. Ok?"

"Ok... Yeah, just let me know when you're ready. I'm so tired... Can't wait to get some sleep."

"Me either but I gotta finish this program I've been working on... I might be up all night... You go on to bed and I'll join you when I can."

As we stepped in the door, she headed for the kitchen and her computer and I headed to my bed. That didn't go as I thought it would.

I just woke up and found O asleep on the kitchen table. Woke her a little and told her I was gonna go out and get a few groceries and things. She said ok and moped to the bed... I'm feeling a little down as I write this last part and remember that conversation from last night... :(

Oh well... off to the store with maybe a few tears in my eyes. One good thing is that I'm off today but looks like that will be sucked into the crappiness of the day.

Bye.

Time to Go to the Beach!

Got home and me and Olivia ate a quick, early dinner around 6:15 and then I decided we should go to the beach. She agreed! I needed to hear the soothing sounds of the ocean and feel the sun and water on my body!

We had a great time! We laid out and swam and had quite a few admirers!

I've been wanting to merge topless bathing and strawberries for a long time!!!

This is heaven!

After the beach, we went back to my car and put on little dresses and just walked around and shopped and ate at a little tiki-hut like restaurant.

Yeah, we didn't wear bras!!! Oh the freedom!!! Olivia, nice pic by the way!

I got a burger and fries and Olivia got a small steak and a baked potato. After that we went our favorite pier and listened to the band play. They were good! I've heard them before. They're called Captain Anderson and Sons and they are a cover band. They must know every song in existence. Every song that someone called out they knew it!

Well, we got home just a little while ago and took a quick shower. We didn't put any clothes back on because it's now almost 11:30! Which means Nighttime Nakedness with Letterman!

Bye!!!

I Think I'll Take a Little Dip...

Got to my parent's house and no one was home. No prob, I still have a key! Stepped in the house and called Mom. She said that they had gone to the store for a bit and to make myself at home. Well, duh, that's what I plan to do. She said they'd be home in like 15 minutes so I headed up the stairs to my old room and sat down on the bed and just looked around. I really have no memory of this room. 

I know what kinda stuff went on in here when I was Brendan but not a single memory as Bree. This is so bizarre... I checked in some of the drawers and most of the stuff had been cleaned out. They are used as mainly storage now and this room is used as a guest room. I opened the huge closet and did see a few pairs of shoes in there. Mostly dressy shoes and a pair of black high heels... I was tempted. I'll have to admit, I've done a little cross dressing in the past, but not in high heels. This should be interesting... I slipped off my Cons and my socks and put them on my feet. They weren't too terribly high, maybe 2.5" and I stood up and braced myself against the wall, just in case. I took a step and then two.. three.. four.. then I was walking around the room, with no problem at all. Wow!!! Muscle memory or something had to have taken over. I did a little jog and did fine. Unbelievable!!! I ran back over to the closet and remembered something. As Brendan, I had stashed something in here. I hit the closet light and crawled to the back corner and the carpet was still loose. I pulled it up and saw the the floorboards were still movable and pulled the two short boards up. There it was - my lockbox. I had a few things in there that I wanted to keep hidden... like some dirty magazines and stuff... I remembered the code 3*48*7. I flipped the top open and there they were. My 4 favorite playboys ever from when I was like in Jr. High... WOW!!! I grabbed all four of them and as soon as I got them out of the box, they transformed into what looked like a girls diary... I dropped it immediately - I was totally freaked out. There was a little lock on it and I didn't see the key. Bummer. Right about then, I heard mom opening the door and yell, "Bree, where are ya?" It startled me a little and I threw the diary back in the box and it turned back into the playboys right before my eyes... What tha!!! I placed the boards back down and pulled the carpet back and got up and went back to the room as Mom was coming in.

"Hey," I said. "I'm loooking for a swimsuit. I was thinking about going to the beach for a bit. You haven't seen one of mine around here anywhere ha ya?"
"No. The last time Jenny was here she left a black one. It's here somewhere. Want me to find it?"
"Sure. That'd be great. Hey, I was wondering, is all my stuff still in the pool house?"
"Yeah, your dad and Luke were just talking about loading it up and getting it to you soon."
"Cool! I really need some of that stuff right about now."

She came over and gave me a hug.

"All my babies have grown up. You're a very beautiful woman now. I just want you to know that I'm proud of you!"
"Thanks, Mom," I said trying not to tear up. "I have a question for you... What's your best memory of me?"
"Well, that'd have to be when you got that job of yours. You were the youngest person to get hired on. It's really the memory of how excited you were. They had given you this huge project. You totally blew everyones mind with your design. They gave you the job very soon after that, like first semester in your senior year. I can tell you my worst memory..."
"Please do tell..."
"When you came home with that first tattoo!"
"Sorry... You should have just said I could get one... Then I probably wouldn't have... not right then anyway..." 

(Wow... I wonder which one it was. As Brendan, the first one I got was on the back of my right arm. I don't have one there now.) We laughed and hugged again.

"I see you found a pair of your old heels?'
"Yep, forgot about these (literally, sorta). I'm gonna take them with me..."
"And you should... Ok, I'm gonna go try to find the swimsuit... Be right back!"

I headed down the stairs, heels still on!?!?!? Wow forgot I was wearing them. Freaky!!! Headed back upstairs and threw them in my old room. Mom found the  the swim suit and suggested that I just stay here and go lay out by the pool. Well, I agreed. I could swim if I wanted here too and it was an awesome pool! She said that she knows how I like to "tan" and that dad wouldn't be home for maybe an hour.

I gave her a puzzled look and she said, "Umm... topless..."
"Oh, yeah. Ha. Of course..." 

I went out to the pool house with the swimsuit and saw all of my old stuff piled a mile high in boxes. There'll be time for that later, I wanna get in that pool I thought to myself... I went into the poolhouse bathroom and took off my clothes... There I was in the poolhouse, naked and a girl. I looked at myself in the mirror for a few minutes, just in awe of my new self, mt new "shell." I started to cry right there.I needed a good cry. So much going on right now. I sat on the closed toilet and ctied for maybe 10 minutes strait, just thinking about everything. Sometimes the crying was out of joy, sometimes out of fear or scared of the unknown. For whatever the reasons, it felt good to do it - just letting all my bottled up emotions from my recent girl past and my distant guy past go freely. I'm sure i was a mess and looked in the mirror and my make-up was everywhere. I washed my face with some hand soap and slipped on the swimsuit. It felt like bar and panties but as slicker and cooler on my skin. I posed a little bit and rubbed/ran my hands over my body. I grabbed some lotion out of the closet and did another take of my body oin the mirror - sexy, I though as I made my way to the pool. I knew the water might be a little chilly but I dove in anyway. Nipples were at full attention when I surfaced! I went under again and played with them for as long as I could hold my breath... a few times. So fun!!!

I swam for a little while then pulled out a chair and sat down to work on my tan for a bit. I got the suntan lotion and rubbed it on my body. I removed my top, hey, it's what mom said I did and it's just her here, and put some on my front side. That felt good too! I laid down on my belly and gave myself a wedge, put some lotion down there too, and got settled in just to remember something. I got my phone and set it for 30 minutes and took this pic. Thirty minutes is how long Jenny used to stay out here and our coloring is about the same... hopefully I won't get toasted.

Wow! Dat ass!!! I'm quite lucky!

30 minutes on the back and thirty on the front. I will admit though, I did put my top back on for the front. Not ready to do that just yet. Dad could be home at any moment... Timer went off as I had just fallen asleep... I got up and jumped back in the pool to cool off! I thought it would be a good idea to get out of the sun. I used 50 sunblock, but this Miami sun can scorch you in a hurry!!! 

I went to the pool house and got my clothes and a towel and dried off and wrapped the towel around my waist and headed back in the house. Dad was home and he and mom were eating a sandwich and watching TV. She asked if I wanted one and I said I did and went back upstairs to change back into my clothes. I came back down and mom had made me a turkey sandwich, come chips and a glass of tea. What an awesome mom! I ate and then chatted for a while. Dad asked about my week and although it's been crazy, I told him it had been pretty good. We all hugged, said goodbyes then I left. I so wanted to take that journal home but was freaked out by the magic still at work there. Maybe I'd come back again tomorrow after work and go through some of my old stuff and then take it home with some other stuff I find. If that metal box had limited the magical powers, I wondered if my safe at home had done the same... one reason to get on home. 

I got home and just chilled out. Watched some tv and snacked a bit. I guess I should start being careful about what I eat, really... Has my belly gotten bigger in a week? lol! Maybe one more post to come tonight. 

About to go crack the safe!