Back in the Motherland for Some SINSTAR Shoots

Got back to England yesterday and rested a bit and said bye to all the amazing DROPDEAD peeps and headed to the SINSTAR studio to meet up with them. Gonna do a few shoots today for a new line coming out and that's gonna be so cool!

Anyway, here's more shots from the past week in Turkey.

TURKEY!!!

1st Couple Days there...

Cave Tour

Got cold the further down we went!!!

Suckers and seeing the country!

Nessa is really hotttttt!!!

My eyes look really good here!

In love... with our suckers!

Nessa's sad that our suckers are all gone. Vivian glaring in the back...

Free time by the pool!

First time that moon's seen the sun I think!!!

Naughty boy!!! But, can you blame him???

Guys in the foreground chatting and me and Nessa in the background chatting.

First Shooting location. We hiked from here into some woods for the shots...

Topless on the side of the road changing and redoing makeup.

Mid-day snack between shoots.

Location and slight wardrobe change...

Second shooting location. More hiking to some dunes and ruins and a small village.

The girls minus Vivian.

Me and Alexis.

Nessa and me at the ruins on the way to the dunes.

Looking at one where I leapt into the air! So much fun!!!

Pre-Dunes Shot. Me and Nessa did a few shots here for a promo, I think... Look at that sunset!!!

Back from the dunes with Arnie and Nessa

I just got a text form Melody that we need to get ready to go... So, more pics maybe later today!

BYE FROM ENGLAND!!!

Got a Call! Leaving in the Morning for England!

So yeah. Got a call just a little while ago from the "clothing company" (sorry for the secrecy, rules, rules, rules...) and they want me there tomorrow and wanted to know if that was possible. I was just a little freaked because we're doing the tweaking of the last two songs tomorrow but I told them that I could make it. I fully believe that Josh and Andy can handle it and they can even send me the songs to check out if needed.

WOO HOO!!! I'm going across the pond tomorrow!!! Can't wait! Bree is Essex bound! They have me a flat reserved for 5 nights so I guess they are really counting on me being who they want and are going to do some shoots soon after the interview and preliminary shoot.

Album is sounding amazing! Sonically so much better than our EP... Everybody really knocked it out of the park on this one! And I will have to say that I love my parts as well and it's cool to hear my singing on a lot of the songs too!

Josh or one of the guys took this outside of the studio one day this week. Cool pic on a cool fall morning! Gonna be a lot cooler in England. Gonna have to dig out some winter weather stuff for my trip! Can't wait!!!

Quick Post...

I talked to Tonya today. She had talked to Carolyn and C had told her that I was staying with her and who knows what else. Tonya then called me kinda mad. I told her how, for the most part, I got here, and she was even madder, thinking that we'd been sleeping together and all sorts of stuff... I told her that Carolyn was keeping me here and "wouldn't" let me leave and after more discussion, she eventually hung up on me still thinking that we're just this loving couple now, having sex all the time. I called her back to explain, but it went straight to voicemail. I left her a long message trying to explain things.

This made me really mad, thinking that I can't leave so I went to confront Carolyn and as I was getting heated up and really going into her, someone called up and Carolyn buzzed them in. The door opened and it was a small camera crew with a cute blonde stylist as well... all for me to model for. Damn! I felt kinda bad then...

So, I'm about to go do a few shoots today and maybe a few tomorrow... Wow! This surprise is one that I  like... Who'd a thunk this would have happened?



C-Ya...

-B

The End to a Cool Friday!

My proposal went over very well at work today! I just basically have to be there for a total of what would add up to two work days per week during times when I'm not doing a location shoot somewhere else. I'm taking a pay-cut but I'm fairly sure the modeling thing will supersede what I was already making by a long-shot! Pretty cool how everyhting's working out! Everyone I told thought that it was really cool and were really supportive. Tiffany thought it was really cool! She said she's always wanted to be a model. I told her I could introduce her to Carolyn and maybe it could happen. She's really quite a good looking girl! TIFFANY!

I also told the guys in the band after practice. John kinda looked a little too happy about it. I just really have a hard time liking that guy. If he wasn't suck a rock solid drummer, he'd be out... Me and Josh talked a little more. We both agreed that this could be some huge publicity for the band. We're getting together, just the two of us, to work on some more material for out first LP. So far we have about 8 songs that are about 85% finished. We want maybe like 11 or so. I told him that I have a couple that I wanna let him hear and that maybe I could do lead vox on one or two... He seemed cool with the idea! Woo hoo!

Anyway, it's time for me and Olivia to return to something that we haven't been doing in a while... Getting Naked on the Couch and Watching Letterman! That always leads to some fun times!!!

Here's me in muh birthday suit!!!

On the couch waiting for Tonya!!!

Here she comes! It's 11:29!

See ya!

At the Pier with Carolyn

I met Carolyn on the pier around 8:02... Checked my face in the mirror before I got out of my car... Looked good to me. I had some ideas I wanted to try out tonight with Miss Carolyn. She was there waiting for me. She, as usual, was Dressed to the Nines! Before I could even get to her, a young couple who had seen my band play wanted to meet me and tell me how much they liked our music. That was pretty cool! This is happening more and more recently. I chatted with them for just a little while then walked over to Carolyn.

"Hey! You look nice today, Miss Banks. Very nice outfit! Dressed to the Nines as always!"

"I would not dress any other way. How is band life? I see that someone is getting famous."

"Ehh, ya know... For a local band, we're finally getting noticed, a little. I think we're about to do a mini-tour up the East Coast again. Maybe in early October. We're still working out the details."

"Oh that sounds like fun. I hope it does not take you too much away from your work." She said with a smile as she continued to look over the ocean, not looking back to Bree just yet. It was so peaceful on the ocean that night, it almost made her want to swim out there.

"The previous one lasted around a month. About 20 shows..."

"Hmm.. You will need to give HR your schedule sooner rather than later. So tell me what are your thoughts on Tonya."

"Umm, well... Good girl. Super hot. She really seems to like me in a sexual way and I can't seem to say no to her..."

"She loves you... She is not just in lust with you."

I was shocked. I'm sure she could see this on my face. "She know's I'm with Olivia. I haven't withheld this from her. I tell her this. Really, I don't know what to do about her. I'm for some reason really attracted to her. I mean her looks alone are enough to attract me to her, but it seems like more. I can't figure it out. I can't control myself around her. I don't think it's love. I know I love Olivia. I don't know... It seems really complicated and I guess it is... She said she's 'In Love' with me? And another thing. I'm not used to being able to attract people with looks of her caliber." 

"She has told me that she is dealing with it and will move onto be with Dani. I planned on her being with Dani. It is something I could manage for her, to protect her." Carolyn wasn't smiling anymore, her face was more serious and reserved as this seemed important to her.

"What happened or happens or will happen between us is not all my fault. I very often try to resist. She is fairly relentless in her pursuit. I've told her many times we could be good friends but I'm in love with Olivia. I wanna be her friend and I don't want to hurt her but she needs to hold back as well."

"Olivia has given you two permission to be together sexually I am guessing." Carolyn said this rather questioningly. I know she knew somehow. Tonya must have told her.

"Yes. And I planned to use that permission 'sparingly.' Actually, the last two times we've been together, I've not 'orgasmed' per my decision."

"Good girl." Carolyn put her hand on my shoulder. "I am glad to hear that. It makes me happy to know that you are controlling yourself. I would hate to have to put you in a chastity belt." She laughed a little and then took her hand off of me.

Her touch sent a little tingle through me. All this talk about control... Yikes! "Thanks. And no, the chastity belt is not necessary... I don't think anyway. So, what brings you to Miami?"

"I had to come back to convince the crew that they may need to relocate in the future to be more involved in the modeling side of things. The pay is amazing as are the hours and such." Carolyn smiled as she looked at me.

I looked at her and then at the crashing waves. This beach has been my play-place my whole life. Now so many different circumstances are pulling at me. Can I just uproot myself and do this. What about the band. We're finally making more headway than ever before. "I just don't know. I don't know if I can... move. I love Miami."

"You do not need to make the decision right this second, but realize if you want to become a full fledged model, you will have to. Sending crews down here costs money dear. You will have a couple months to decide." She smiled and then handed me a card that had her name and number on it. "Now let me get you a drink to relax after a hard day."

"That's not necessary. I'm trying to not... Actually, sure! That sounds great!"

"Good." A bar was there on the pier, Carolyn had already rented a booth to sit at. She walked in and then the hostess guided us over to it where Carolyn sat down gracefully on the right side of it. "I will have lemonade, she will likely want a beer or something stronger."

"Just make it a semi-hard lemonade..."

"You can go for stronger stuff dear, I have to drive back so I have to be sober. You do not."

"I don't want to get drunk... been doing that too much lately."

"Oh really?" Carolyn was actually a little surprised by that. "When? I have not seen you report it on your blog."

"Oh yeah... It's on there... I even lost my car and me and Olivia had to go find it the next day. Kind of a wake up call. I had a little bit of a drinking problem for a little while as Brendan..."

"Well that would be best not to pick back up then. She will have 9 part lemonade one part alcohol then." And the waitress was off. Carolyn looked over to me. "I just keep learning things about you."

"Apparently, for you, I'm an open book. Have you spoken to Tonya about any of this?"

"No, I have not. I am not sure she exactly needs to know just yet but I will tell her at some point."

"So... the photo-shoot we did. How did the pics turn out? Were they well received by your company?"

"They were, they are already being processed. You should have been paid for them today."

"Cool! I really wanna see them. Do you have a way to view them?" Carolyn pulled out her phone and then passed it over to me to look through all of the pictures that were taken at the shoot and such.

"Wow! These look amazing! What all are they gonna be used for?"

"Various things, the non-sexy ones are going to be used for a travel agency and the more explicit ones are going in the photographic art book we are making."

"Aww... you think some are 'non-sexy...'"

"Well I meant that the ones that were not as sexual as say you being topless is what I meant. You look delectable in all of the pictures, just that there are ones that show off more skin than others." She said as she was watching me with the device that contained the digital versions of all of the pictures that had been taken.

I really liked them. I still can't believe that the pics were of me. I mean, these are the types of pics that as a guy, would really have turned me on. "Yeah. I knew what you mean. It was just kinda funny how you said it. And wow! There are so many. You guys and 'girls' sure have a lot to choose from, don't ya?"

"Yes we do, and we believe in quality as well as quantity as you can see. So the question soon becomes, which shall be your main profession dear? Do you want to continue to work behind the camera or things like this where you are placed before it?" Se smiled somewhat suggestively before looking to the window. I just know that gears were spinning away in that pretty brunette head of hers.

"It's not so much my job, the graphic design one job that is. It's my band. Things are really starting to take off. We may be doing an short East Coast tour and that usually means people are starting to take notice. So, that's the hard part. Oh, and the fact that I've lived here my whole life and I love this beach! I thought Tonya said you were going to be setting up an office here..."

"I never said you had to give up the band. Not for a while at least. As a model, your hub could be here in Miami but we could fly you off to all sorts of place. Paris, London, Los Angeles, Tokyo, all sorts of place where you would show yourself off for the benefit of the company and get paid for it as well."

"Well, when you put it that way, that sounds perfect! And, that contract that you gave Tonya to give to me, I kinda lost it... or it's buried in my car under stuff..."

"We can no longer have that go on Bree. I have a second one, luckily since I considered that the first would have been lost by now." She pulled it out of her handbag and laid it flat on the table. "You have got to be more responsible because remember, when you sign this contract you are literally a walk representation of Skyline."

"I can't help it. It's me. I've been this way my whole life. Looks like that aspect of me got transfered to this me as well. I do try, really! I swear, I will not loose this one!"

"No, you sign it right here. I will have a copy sent to you after it is processed." Carollyn pulls out a pen and offered it over to me so that I could sign the contract.

"I think I need to read over this for a while unless you wanna walk through the whole thing with me right now. I need to be sure exactly what a 'Walking representation of Skyline' consists of!"

"Keeping yourself in shape and as you are currently, not causing any major media controversies, not doing anything illegal but other than that we are fairly open about things. I am not the devil after all. It is not my goal to trap you like a caged bird."

"I guess I better start to exercise a little. I might be putting on a little weight. Too many burgers. I really still seem to like food. I have been trying to eat better and exercise... so don't worry, I'm not gonna get fat, I hope not anyway." I looked at her and she seemed to be trying to see if she ccould tell a difference in my body. "Well then, show me some stuff on here." I got up and came over to her. I put the document down in front of her and slid in the booth right next to her. I put my right hand gently on her left knee and lean over a bit so I can see the paper better and waited for her to tell me and show me some details. "Ok. Me and Skyline. Go! - By the way, your hair smells really good and always looks amazing! Well... actually... the rest of you does too... Ok... Sorry! Back to Skyline!" I was just realizing that I was sitting next to such a beautiful woman...

"I have been watching your posts and already have a personal trainer lined up here in Miami that is going to make sure you get down to your optimal weight and stay there." Her eyes glanced you over seeing that there were a few weight changes that had occurred but they were not huge. She also seemed a little unsteady when I leaned on her. Carolyn shrugged and then looked down at the paper. She pointed to the first section. 

"Personal Trainer huh?"

"This is all about maintaining your appearance and not doing things to put it and you in jeopardy. This includes smoking, drug use, extreme sports, fighting, and excessive drinking. The next sections says that you understand that we can have you travel to all sorts of places foreign and domestic by giving you at least a two day notice." 

"Two day notice!?!? Damn! That's not much time..." I was just looking at her talk... "I don't think I do any of that stuff..." 

"Bree, focus. I know your little struggle but remember you are going to be surrounded by other models when at events or photoshoots and you are going to need to control yourself."

"I'm trying to focus. Carolyn, just lighten up a bit. Just try. I really think you need to have sex. There! I said it. Note, I didn't say with me, but, I think you really are wigging yourself out here. And by the way, I am getting much better with my control!"

"At least, it means that we have to give you more notice than that. And this is about business not my sex life."

"I've read your posts... Believe me. I know that!"

"I am doing quite well without all this sexual activity that you and the rest of the girls are having. It is a slippery slope and the moment it would seem I am the King or Queen rather of the Hill. 

 "Queen of the Hill, huh? Yeah right! Carolyn Banks... All business!!!"

"Teasing is but a game where I gain an advantage over my competitors and other people. It can be a business move as I can manipulate people just the way that I want them. And since I do not partake in the final act then I can continue to remain on top."

I smiled. "Yeah! Being on top is fun!!! Hee  hee!!!" She didn't seem to think that little sexual joke was funny... Boo hoo!

"Now this section says that we pay you in various ways, one is that we will buy all of your clothes. And that you are to only wear what we buy for you in public. Go ahead and wear whatever you want at home but if you are in range of a camera we want you in clothes we bought."

"Yikes!?!?"

"Carrying on, the clothes are trendy and fashionable, you will like them. Now we also will pay for travel, hotel rooms, food and all that when you are on the road. But of course you will be making monetary compensation from the work as well, at least double to triple your current salary depending on the amount of events you attend and so forth."

"I just don't know about the clothes thing... Kinda sending off alarms in my head. Just being honest here. I know that wearing clothes for shoots that are picked for me is a must. I really like that aspect of it. But, in my everyday life, I... I just don't know. I really like my clothes I guess. I'm a t-shirt and jeans kinda girl for the most part. I do like wearing more feminine stuff from time to time, but I like my style just the way it is. I mean look at what I'm wearing right now. Does this look tomboyish? I think not!"

"Bree, you are a model. We will give you stuff that makes you look approachable but still we want you to always look ready to have a picture taken of you. And this is just training if you get sponsored. If a clothing company sponsors you then you have to wear their stuff exclusively."

"Err.. umm... I know what you mean... but..."

"But?" Carolyn turns to look at Bree, not sure if she really enjoys all of this hesitation if it was for something that Bree was going to enjoy anyway. "Bree, it will not be so bad."

"I have like two closets full of clothes that I really enjoy wearing! And all my Converse! I just don't know. I love my clothes!!! Damn! I really sound like a girl here! I mean I am one, but.. you know..."

"Converse are not girly...and from what I have seen of your closet some of it seems a little tomboyish. But I am not saying that you have to throw it all out, just that you will have an additional amount of clothing that you need to wear when outside."


"I don't want to be girly. I'm not girly. So, what do you mean by additional amount to wear outside? If maybe I could merge the old and the new... that would be acceptable."

"That is more what I meant, we will give you new clothes but that does not mean that you will need to get rid of your old."


"That's not what you said though... I just can't go from what I have now to some new stuff. I would feel like I was selling out. I'm not gonna sell out. The people I hang with in the band scene, selling out is bad, and I agree with them. I would be a target of ridicule if I did that. That ain't gonna happen. I know I'm probably making more out of this than I should, but that's just where I stand."

"Ok, we will make it so that you can wear some of your old stuff when at home here in Miami when you are not with your band. That is of course until you get an endorsement or sponsor that will want you to wear their clothing."

"Now we're talking!" I looked at her and gave her a big smile. "So, what's left on here..."

"Act in a manner that is not going to get you or others unwanted media attention. Publicity is one thing but acting trashy in public is quite another." She pointed out on the contract where these things were. 


"I'm not trashy. How dare you... Not gonna be a problem!"

"Good girl, then that should be everything."

"Cool! When will all this start? I'm gonna need to take care of some things first... like work... and stuff."

"It can take place in a week or two but no longer than that as we need to start geting you established and such."

"Let's do two. I wanna give work a two week notice and I have a few projects to finish."

"Good girl. Now sign and then you are officially a model of Skyline." She said this with some excitement in her voice as she held out the pen for me.


"First of all, I want some kind of notation made that says I can still wear my old stuff as well as the new! Email me that if you would... before I sign..." I looked at her and smiled a crazy little smile with one eyebrow raised.

"I can do that." Carolyn crossed the lines out of that provision and then wrote the new provisions into the contract where she then initaled the change that she had made to it. "Yes, what is it?"


"Email me this..."

Bree can wear her seemingly 'unstylish and tomboyish' clothes...while in public while a model with Skyline...she has agreed to sometimes pair new Skyline provided clothes with her old clothes to make some fantastic wardrobe ensembles...Bree has agreed to always look her best in public...

"Ok, I can do that. But remember if you get endorsed that will likely change." She noted as she made sure that all of that was written in an email that she then sent me from her phone. "Are you happy now Bree?" 

My iPhone bleeped and I looked at it and read the message and smiled. "Ok. Where's the dotted line?"

Carolyn fliped through the page and then pointed to the dotted line at the bottom with her well manicured finger nail. "And once that is done we are all good."

"Ok, here goes!" I took a deep breath and signed it. "I wonder what my mom and dad will say when I tell them this. They have told me that they were so proud of me when I got my design job..."

"I think they'll be cool with it..."

"So... is our lilttle business meeting over?"

"I think that your parents will be very proud to learn that their daughter is now a model adored by millions of people." She whisked the contract away into her bag to keep it safe so that she could turn it in. "Yes it would seem that our meeting is concluded." She stood up making sure that she had everything that she needed.

"Well, cool! Thanks for obliging my one little request. Ever so reasonable of ya." I leaned over and gave her a little side-hug and a peck on the cheek.... "I'm guessing you're off now to conduct more business somewhere..."

"Well you likely have somewhere to be as well. I am just going to the UPS Store to copy and fax this." She stayed relatively still through all of the touching. These displays of affection seemed to be a little foreign to her in her current state. She probably just thought it was a reflection of my "shaky control."

"I don't, I just figured you did. You seem to always be on the move. We can sit and talk if you want. I'll go back to me side of the booth so I won't be... all up on ya!" I chuckle a little... "Sorry. My family was very touchy and affectionate. My dad is a big softy!"

"It helps to keep busy. Idle hands are the devl's plaything and I think you understand that better than the rest of us." She looked at her watch, and then over to the menu of this little place and then shrugged. "So what about your contract did you have questions about? Or are you worried about the Foundation?"

"Ah... Well. My hands a rarely idle..." I chuckled! "And... The foundation! Now there's a good topic to discuss. Tell me what you've found out!" 

"Not a whole lot, just found a few more of us scattered across the globe. I am setting up a network of support as I planned. And for the moment it is about 55% to 45% in favor of their femininity. Others are people who were changed by others and sort of cling to their old lives. No one is sure what the mechanism that is only causing gender change related wishes to come true but others not so much. And having someone wish you be normal does not work"

"Hmm... Wow!"

"I kind of expected those results to be honest. It would be too easy of a solution." She shrugged before pulling out her phone. "Anything else you would like to know?"

"Whatcha looking at there?"

"Text messages from work and stuff, I need to tell my boss that I got you to sign the contract." She said as she I guess typed out a message to I guess, like she said, her boss.

"Were you thinking I'd sign for sure? Just wondering?"

"I figured I would convince you."

"Yeah. You did. You sure did..."

"Well I had to rework one thing but it worked regardless. So now you are a model and a designer. Though I would say I prefer the former to the latter as no one gets to appreciate the beauty that is Bree."

"Well thank you! And you know what, you could model as well... I mean, these wishes sure did a job on us, didn't they?"

"I have no desire to model. Carolyn used that to get into Skyline and then maneuvered her way into management. So I am not going to take a step back when I already have so much."

"Well, there's a new Carolyn fun fact I didn't know! So, in the Skyline chain of command, where do you stand?"

"I am three steps from the top."

"Veo! So, you looking to take those steps to the top?"

"I am thinking that I will one day but at the moment I am fine where I am."

"Yeah right! You are planning your takeover right now I bet now that I brought it up... lol!"

I then got a text from O asking if everything was ok and that she'd just gotten back with a movie, The Lake House, and a box of ice-cream sandwiches. "Well Carolyn, it's been super nice talking with you. That was Olivia, by the way. We are watching a movie tonight and she just got home. I'll talk to my work tomorrow about this and give them the notice. I'll also be eager to hear from you again." I walked over to her and gave her another hug.

"Goodbye Bree. I will be in touch! Be a good girl... for both of our sakes!"

"Hey! It's me!"

"That's what I'm afraid of."

"You have nothing to worry about."

She waved without turning around and I walked out to me car to back here.

As I was heading out, the couple that talked to me when I first got there was coming off the pier to go to the bar and I asked them if one of them would take a pic of me wearing this dress. The girl, Sandy, said she would...

Told ya! No bra. I actually did try one soft cotton one, but it hurt too bad!
It was nice to be free for one evening! See, I can be girly if I want to!!!

That was a crazy meeting. Good but crazy! Anywhoo... 

The movie was really good. Lots of twists in it! O really picked a good one this time. Now it's bedtime! I really enjoy bedtime! I really enjoy before bedtime, bedtime. Lol!

See ya!!!