Just Got Some Interesting Pics and Happy Thanksgiving!

Ok. Looks like I had a few to drink at my birthday party at the club a little over a month ago. Paul, the club's event planner guy and a friend of mine, just sent me these pics and wow, I was wondering where that hat and shirt came from!!! Lol...

SUITS!!!

I've never seen this guy before!?!?!

DAMN!!!

I love this jacket!

The start of not remembering...

No memory of this...

I've really got to stop drinking so much... I have no memory of those last three pics. So crazy... Wow!

Anywhoo, I just got the news that I'm heading out on Sunday for England and then to the Middle East!!! SO PUMPED!!! Tonya's gonna fly over to London on the last few days and hang out and stuff! That's gonna be really cool! I wish she could come the whole time but Drop Dead won't let her come, and I understand. That'd cost them a lot of money. WOO HOO!!! I can't wait. This modeling stuff is like a dream come true! I've always wanted to travel and now I sure as hell am!!!

Heading over to the Old Folks Home tomorrow after I cut the grass and get some stuff squared away with my house and feeding Molly and all and stuff at work. Tonya can probably check on stuff with my house and I just hope that maybe Friday and maybe Saturday morning I can get over to the office and get a few things squared away. I can also work from here if I need to and also take my laptop with me, but I have no idea if there'll be wi-fi where we'll be.

Gonna head to my fav burger joint and get some food and then, I just don't know, might go over to Tonya's or I might just drive up the coast with the windows down and the radio blaring!

I'M OUT!!!

Fun Times in England with Melody!

So, as it turns out, me and this other model, Melody, are gonna be the featured female models for the Autumn 2013 line and featured on the website predominantly!!! How cool is that! She's been a model here in England for a while and been with SINSTAR for a year now. We totally hit it off immediately and have been hanging out between shoots! And... she's pretty hot as well with some awesome tats, too! We did a really cool outdoor shoot last night! There is this really amazing pic of me! I can't wait to post it.

They said that these pics will go up almost immediately. They are eager to get this new line up and how cool is that. I'll be a featured model on a clothing companies website like by the end of the week! And, the coolest part, I get to keep all the clothes and they're giving me tons more to take back home with me! Rad!!!

Here are some pics from the week so far!

First meeting Melody!!!

I think the first shoot...

Hanging out at Melody's place about to go clubbing after a long day.
I was probably texting (sexting) with Tonya here! Hee hee!

Josh sent me one of the songs they finished and it sounds so freaking good! DAMN!!! I just want to post it right now but I better not! Soon though, I'll put some up.

Well, we're gonna go get a cool black taxi and head to the club again! Hopefully I won't consume too much "liquid-courage" and make a fool out of myself tonight!

Not Feeling so Good This Morning.

Was at the studio finishing up the last few lead tracks and left there around 9:40pm and headed for Tonya's place. I went on in and no one was there so I called and she said that she was in the hot-tub with Heather and Jess. She sounded a little weird or something... So... I went and got on one of my bikinis from my room there and headed down there. They were drunk. Really drunk. Especially Heather and Jess... But Tonya was too. I slipped off my long t-shirt and got in and grabbed a drink. I was hoping this was a good idea because of my current condition and nothing happened... Tonya is so hot. I just sometimes can't get over it... I'm pretty sure me and Tonya made out like the whole time as well as did Heather and Jess. Hell, we may have all had one big orgy, I don't really remember... I just know that I just woke up just a little bit ago and have a killer headache, I feel really bloated and don't want to go into the office today even though I think I have a ton of stuff to do... I'm going back to bed. No one else is up. Screw work today...

Back to sleep for Breely!

bye.

The Look!

Here's the look!

This was before we went into the club! Make-up still looking pretty good

I got a lot of 'looks' tonight from a lot of guys, especially at the club! I guess I do look really sexy and hot! Ya know what, I know that guys are attracted to me. I get that. And, I'm even becoming more and more comfortable with that, kinda. Our waiter was really overwhelmed by the four of us hot girls at the table at the restaurant. He was stammering and could barely get words out when he was at our table. I have to admit, I flirted with him a lot! It was fun. Tonya thought it was rude. Jess and Heather thought it was funny.

At the movies, well, we all sat near the back... umm... barely watched the movie. We basically paid to make-out in a dark theatre! Fun though!!!

At the club... Well... What a night... Go there around midnight and I'll have to admit, Heather was a bit awkward at first. She was stiff and it was quite funny. Me and Tonya just got right down to dancing. they were paying some awesome dub-step stuff and with the strobes, it was so freaking cool! We danced for a little while and then went to the bar and got a few drinks. Jess and Heather went off somewhere by themselves and me and Tonya sat at the bar talking for a while until two guys offered to buy us drinks. We took them up on their offer and they came over and we talked. I straight off the bat told them we were lesbians and that we were together and they seemed bummed but stayed to talk. After a while, me and Tonya decided to dance again and they asked if they could dance with us. They said, "Just as friends..." So, we danced with two guys. And ya know what, it was ok. A little awkward but we gave those guys a good time, I mean nothing sexual... but, they got to be seen dancing with two hot girls! After about an hour, we sat back down and Jeffery sat close to me and Austin got up and moved around us to do something. Jeffery called my name and I turned around and he gave me a little peck of a kiss on my lips and Austin stepped up and took a pic of it. Had I not been a little wasted, I really might have gotten mad, but I kinda laughed and Tonya laughed and then we all laughed!!! Now that I'm sitting here with a slight hangover, I want to kill him! All good though. I guess I got him to send me the pic because here it is...

Kinda blurry and damn, it's looks like I liked it but I do remember pushing him back right after the flash went off!!!

And after hours of dancing, my make-up looked like shit at the end of the night and I was like super sweaty... We got back at 4AM so I feel so gross right now... UUhhhgggg. I so need a shower!!! And I slept in my make-up and clothes so I look really bad right now and smell pretty rank... Check it...

A masterpiece of beauty... lol!!!

About to head to the shower. Maybe a bath. Tonya has a huge soaker tub! Maybe she'll join me!!!

Here's What Happened Last Night...

So... I just read that last post... wiki-wiki-wack!!! Wow! I guess we were really plastered. That post was super crazy. I think Olivia really did order a hamburger - and I think there were some kids either in the bar (weird) or on the steps outside of it... but then again, I could have been making all that stuff up!?!?!?

I still don't know where my car is... that really sucks. I need my baby here at home with my in it's little parking place...  I'm waiting for Olivia to wake up and then we're gonna go down to where I think it might be. It can't be too far from the restaurant where we ate. I don't remember going very far from it. Damn, I have a really bad headache... I gotta stop drinking... again!!! It's gonna kill me.

Olivia got some random guy to take a pic of me and her...

Here's what I ended up wearing last night...

Mmm Mmm! Yes! That's a nice ass if I do say so myself!!! Once again, being a little vain I know, but I can't help it. Being able to take a pic of me as a GIRL and one that looks that good, makes me so DAMN happy!!! 

Anyway, WHEN I do find my car, I plan on going to the gym today. Might run in the indoor track and shoot some basketball. I really need to exercise. I can tell a little bit of difference since I became the new me. Fat is creeping up in places that it likes to creep up in on girls. Belly rolls - Love Handles - Sadle Bags - Thunder Thighs... Gotta fight it off...

I hear O moaning and complaining in the bedroom. I better go check on her... I'm sure she feels like shit! Why do we do this to ourselves!?!?!?

Bye!!!

Spent the Night at Tonya's...

Had to write this before I forgot too much!

I went to meet up with Tonya yesterday to talk about some things. After our photoshoot Sunday the 2nd, I stayed with her and we, well, hooked up. After a few drinks and just being around her, I couldn't, we couldn't take it anymore. We made love and I ended up waking up the next morning naked in her bed and she was gone with a note left for me there on her dresser. She said she loved her time with me but she had to get away for a while. The note went into further details saying she went to Arizona to visit her grandmother whom she had recently learned about and was not sure when she would be back... I was really shocked and started to tear up a bit. And, I had really overslept, had no clothes and was really late for work, too! 

So, last night, I met up with her at a nightclub to talk about that. I just told her that I was really confused when I woke up like that and though I'd done something wrong. I was really kinda heartbroken because I thought what we did was something she was wanting to do as well. We got that mini-mess straightened out and then two guys started hitting on us and offered us drinks. The first guy that came over said that he saw me at one of my band's shows and blah, blah, blah... Hey, free drinks, right? It was ok, just talking to them until the one guy, what was his name, oh yeah, douche-bag. We just sat there talking and stuff until douche-bag, a little drunk mind you, started to feel up my leg. I pulled away and he scooted over more and did it again. I politely asked him to stop and he didn't... I got up and said to Tonya it's time to leave and she threw the rest of her drink in his face... Well, that got him to stop. I think she also kicked him hard in the shin. He was doubled over when I looked back on our way out.

We headed back to her place and ended up in a loveseat on her patio overlooking the ocean with her head in my lap and I was just playing with her hair and stroking her back. I just wanted to relax. I mean, I'm still on the "rag," although I was too embarrassed to tell Tonya that at first. I also felt that every time we're alone, it turns into sex... I thought about it and told her this... this is kinda personal...

...I want to do this so bad but... I also made a deal with myself that I would just, this time, well... I just want to spend some time with you that's not completely and overtly sexual in nature. I mean, like, I am turned on right now but I just wanted this time to be a time to hang out and snuggle and bond as friends... I'm sorry... You turn me on so much and I, for me just wanted to prove to myself that I could spend time alone with you that wouldn't turn in to sex. It's just a me thing... I'm just trying to work on control and being in control of me... and not just lashing out sexually every chance I get... Doing what I'm wanting to do now is so damn hard with someone like you here in my arms. but I feel like I have to do it, for my sake. I hope you understand... My sex drive seems to always be in 6th gear, especially around you girls who have transformed... I know that our "encounters" are few and far between mostly, but, I really want this one to be about us just enjoying being with and around and near each other... I'm so sorry if I completely ruined what you wanted for tonight... Please don't take this the wrong way... I really feel deeply for you... I really do!

So... we just lay there until I started feeling dizzy. T helped me to her bed and made me some food and I started feeling better. I texted O to tell her what was going on and she asked if she wanted her to pick me up but I told her I'd be ok here at Tonya's. I haven't really eaten much since this period started so I guess I was just physically spent. I fell asleep with her playing with my hair while watching Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull. 

I was woken up by her putting a big necklace on me and from the smell of something delicious cooking. After I rubbed my eyes a few times, I hate sleeping in make-up, she wanted to take a pic of me looking all sleepy. I turned around and posed the best I could. I didn't want to do it but she insisted! I was sure I looked great with crazy hair and make-up all under my eyes, but I did it anyway. She sent me the pic. She said I look really sexy in it. Here it is... Don't I just look great!?!?!? mmm hmm...

Actually, I kinda like this look!!!
Might go for this the next time the band plays...

So... I got up and we ate, some amazing French Toast, and then I had to take a shower but T really wanted some... loving... I agreed to do her but she was to not touch me. I hoped in the shower for a few minutes and get as clean as I could in like three minutes and then she hopped in. Well... she got what she wanted, believe me! And she seemed to really like it! 

I borrowed some of her clothes, not her bra though... One cup swallowed my whole damn chest!!! Hee Hee!!! ;) Have you seen those hooters that girl has! Check them out here on her blog!!! I finished getting ready and I let a secret out... Oops... BIG TIME!!! We also thought it would be cool to double date - Me and Olivia and her and Dani. Go to a fancy resturant then go see maybe The Man of Steel or something... Sounds like fun!!!

Now I'm at work and feeling lots better!!! My mom called me like an hour ago to check up on me again. She said to be sure to take my vitamins and that I'm borderline anemic!!! So that's why I haven't been feeling well and almost passed out last night!!! Makes sense now! Lost lots of blood.. Iron low... Not really eating...

Is it bad that I can't stop staring at that pic of myself... *blush*

Oh yeah... Dad is sick so the dinner at the "old folks home" has been moved until tomorrow... Bummer... I guess I'll have to drag myself home to Olivia... ;)

Bye for now! One hour left at work!!! Woo Hoo!!!