So Much for Relaxing...

We just had a show yesterday... It went well, but it was like, totes last minute. We played right before the closing band and did 11 songs. Also... ALSO!!! We have a radio interview on Sunday, a show on Tuesday, New Years Eve, and then another radio interview and a radio performance on Friday!!! WOW! Calendar is filling up. I guess I'm about to start living the "rock star" life really soon!

Here's a few pics from the show yesterday. My dad came to it and brought mom and he snapped a few pics!

What an unflattering face! Thanks DAD!!!

Feeling the music and, ALLEN rocking it out!!!

I think the show on New Years Eve is gonna be big! Now sure of all the details, Marty, our manager, is hopefully taking care of all that. We hired him about the time we started recording our cd and now, he's fully into us and is really helping out. Josh is still really involved in all that stuff, too, but we're letting Marty take over that aspect a good bit now.

I'm going back to bed. Then I might swing over and see Heather and Jess and see what they're doing. Haven't hung out with those cuties in a while.

Here's a pic of my new cat shirt that I got at Goodwill last week. Just found it in a bag yesterday and washed it and wore it to bed. SO SOFT!!!

Only $!! What a steal!!! I look sleepy, don't I?

Bye!

Time to Celebrate the 4th!

Mom wanted everyone there early to hang and play games! They always try to make it fun, which it usually is! If it's one thing the McAdams are all about, it's fun involving games and competition! As soon as we got there, I saw dad in the garage and me and O went to chat. He was already going through the fireworks and I'll have to say that it was the most that he's ever bought!

"Dad! What in the world! Did you buy out a whole stand or something!?!?"

"Well hey there Bree! And how are you miss Olivia?"

"Doing good dad!"

"Me too Mr. McAdams!"

"I bought all these so we can compete with the Russels next door and win this time! I figured that we could all shoot. I think Thomas is coming sometime today to stay a few days. You up for some good ole firework neighbor competition, Olivia?"

"You bet! I love shooting fireworks!"

"Good to hear! Well, these are now all sorted and I have to go back in and help the Mrs. get dinner going and get the grill cleaned and ready. See you girls around!" He walked by me and gave me a kiss just as Luke walked in the garage.

"I bet he never did that to you as Brendan... Hey there.. Olivia!"

"Nope! He sure didn't!"

"Hey Luke. What's up?"

"Not much. What are you two about to do?"

"Swim, maybe. Is the floating goal in the water yet this year?"

"I just put it in! When Tommy gets here we can play some 2 - 2 but until then we can just swim or play 21..."

"Sounds like fun! We'll go change!"

"Yep. Let's go change!"

"See ya in tha pool!"

We went up to my old room and changed and ended up playing a little "purple nurple" on my old bed. With that game, I don't think there's ever a winner. All parties involved end up with sore, red, painful nipples. Fun though... kinda! ;)

We got in the pool, which was surprisingly warm, and started horsing around. Olivia just wanted to swim for the time being so me and Luke played some 1-1 on the floating goal. He won, dammit. He's so much taller than me now! Not too bad though... 15-10... Played one more game... worse... 15-8... We swam a little more and then O wanted to go lay out for a little while. Luke said he would too so we all dried off and headed for some lounge chairs.

Muh legs getting some Florida sunshine!!!

Thomas got there finally, pullin up in his new Defender 90. He came straight over to me, picked me up and threw me in the pool! I was kicking and screaming but he's just too big and strong for me to do anything about it!

He did a hulk pose and then Luke said, "You're sooooo strong Tommy! She weighs like what, a buck 15? Why don't you try to do that to me?"

"Ok! I will!" He walked over and Luke got up and they started to try to throw each other in the pool. Neither one seemed to have the upper hand from my vantage point dog-paddling in the deep-end. They were getting real close to the edge but no one was in yet. Olivia quitely got up and walked over to them. They didn't even see her. She just easily pushed them both in at the same time!!!

Everyone there cheered for her! "I win!" She then took a bow and then did a cannon ball into the deep-end right near me.

"Great job! Well done!"

"Thanks!"

"We played some 2-2 after that. Me and Luke against Olivia and Thomas. It was the closest game ever in McAdams history. We played to 15 and you had to win by two. The final score was... 28-26 in favor of... ME AND LUKE!!! Woo hoo!!! Olivia really surprised me with how good she was! You go girl! Right after the game ended, mom yelled out that it was time to eat.

The food was incredible! Salad with 3 different kinda of homemade dressing, grilled corn on the cob, french fries, burgers, steak, hotdogs and homemade ice cream and a Lemon Meringue pie for dessert! So glad I went to the gym this morning! Now, I'm gonna have to go 5 times tomorrow to work off all this food!

We finished eating and then chatted until we heard something next door... the Russels had shot the first preliminary firework signaling the start of the 2013 McAdams/Russel Fireworks WAR!!! It was on!!!

We got set up fast. We all knew what to do. Battle stations were manned/wo-manned... Mortars were loaded! Rockets set up! Mom had the huge Roman Candles ready. Ready for the first round or Shock & Awe!!! 3... 2... 1... UNLEASH THE MADNESS!!!

We set it off and totally blew away the Russels this year! They never knew what hit them! Here's a pic of the grand finale!

So! As you can see. We really do it up well! The Russels ran out this year about the time we got ready for the finale. They came over and admitted defeat and then we all hung out for a little while.

David made his way over but mostly just hung out with Luke. We did talk, but I could tell he was being a little weird. I wonder if he's seen the pics in the magazine yet... He probably has.

Anyway, we were about to head in. The "kids" always watch Independence Day after fireworks on the big screen ini the den. McAdams and Russels alike! Even David stayed this year. He does sometimes but lately he hasn't.  I love that movie!!!

After the movie, it was time to go. Me and Olivia packed up our things, said our goodbyes and headed out. Dad stopped me and said that mom and him were going to take a vacation and to check up on the place while they were gone. They were leaving Monday night. I told them I would and we were off...

On the way home, as we were pulling in the driveway, I "popped" the question...

"So, Olivia, I was thinking..."

"Don't hurt yourself Breely!" She giggled.

"Ha ha... very funny. Why don't you just sell your apartment and move in? Most of your stuff is already here and you are here like 90% of the time. Just move in already! I'd really like that!"

"I've been thinking about that too, Bree. I just don't know. That's a big step... My old life was at that apartment. I don't know if I wanna give it up yet. Let me think about it and I'll get back to you. Ok?"

"Ok... Yeah, just let me know when you're ready. I'm so tired... Can't wait to get some sleep."

"Me either but I gotta finish this program I've been working on... I might be up all night... You go on to bed and I'll join you when I can."

As we stepped in the door, she headed for the kitchen and her computer and I headed to my bed. That didn't go as I thought it would.

I just woke up and found O asleep on the kitchen table. Woke her a little and told her I was gonna go out and get a few groceries and things. She said ok and moped to the bed... I'm feeling a little down as I write this last part and remember that conversation from last night... :(

Oh well... off to the store with maybe a few tears in my eyes. One good thing is that I'm off today but looks like that will be sucked into the crappiness of the day.

Bye.

Sunday Night at My Fam's House!

My mom called and said that dad decided to grill out tonight and asked if I wanted to come. I said sure and that Olivia was probably gonna come to. She said that she figured she would come and that she'll see us around 6-ish.

We got there around 6:05 and I could smell the burgers and steaks cooking! We fixed out plate and sat down outside on the back covered deck and enjoyed one hell of a good meal! Mom had gotten out the big fryer and made some homemade fries and they had watermelon and cantaloupe as well! I ate a burger and the little part of Olivia's steak she couldn't finish. Then mom brought out some homemade lemon pound cake and I completely stuff myself. I secretly lifted up my shirt and looked in shock at my belly spilling over my shorts!!! DAMN!!! Mom cornered Olivia and started to ask her about where she was from. Olivia seemed to be doing fine... thank God! Luke wanted to know if i wanted to throw some football and I said I did. I really wanted to tell him about what all's happened to me. For some reason I feel like I need to tell him.

"Luke, whatcha doing later on this week?"

"Nothing really. Just the normal stuff. Why?"

"Well, I might need you to come over and help me move some stuff."

"Sure! What day you thinking?"

"Oh, umm, let's say Wednesday. Will that work?"

"I don't see why not. What time?"

"After work... around 6:30-ish?"

"Sounds good! Now, go long sis!"

I did our favorite route! Straight then cut to the old swingset, fake the pass then run toward the pool and catch it there for the score!!! Dolphins win! Marino finally gets his ring!!!

"You ready to go in?"

"Sure! I wanna go upstairs and check to see if I have anything I might need from my old closet."

"Cool! Hey! It's great seeing you so happy! I really like this new you!"

"Well thanks! And I am happy! It feels good to be happy."

"No prob!"

"Well, I better go rescue Olivia. Mom had her cornered. Looked like one of her 2000 question moments! See ya in bit Luke."

"Bye!"

I went in and mom had some old photo albums out and was showing them to O!

"You were such a cute kid, Bree! Just a little darling!"

"I know, right?" I'm gonna head upstairs and see if there's anything I can use from my old closet. Come on up if you can peal yourself away from those albums!"

I headed upstairs and opened the closet doors and saw my old computer. I could only imagine that it probably has some big glimpses into my/Bree's life on it... I decided to hook it up. I got it going and started to look for some stuff about my past. I started with trying to find some picture folders and I hit the jackpot in he documents folder! Wow! All these pics of me and I have no remembrance of them being taken. So weird and almost spooky! I'm gonna have to take this thing home with me!

I just connected to wifi and logged on and am writing this here. I also found some pics of me from high school... Here they are!!! Look at how young I look!!! Look at my hair! So crazy awful!!! Lol!

Me and Lizzy!

Lizzy squeezing my face!

Me and Emily. My/Bree's best friend!

OMG!!! As I just uploaded these on the page, the memories came back to my. I just got chills! BIG time! This was last day of school my senior year!!! As well as signing in our yearbooks, a lot of us girls decided to wear blue shirts, for some crazy reason and sign the shirts as well! Up top, that's my good friend Lizzy! In the middle, that's Lizzy squeezing my cheeks! And on the bottom, doing the duck face, that's Emily, my best friend from high school.

OMG! Lizzy! We could've been a couple. We had some sexual tension/tendencies between us. I think one time we made out and played with each others boobs at my house in the treehouse. Holy shit!!! We did that before me and David made out. That's why I stopped him I think. I was starting to get confused about my sexuality at that point... Damn! This is so much of a memory overload. Gonna close it down and go look at some pics with O and mom...

Bye for now! Bree signing off form her old computer in her old room!

Boring Day at Work... Ready for the weekend...

Just at work wondering what I'm gonna do for lunch... Hmm... Not feeling fast food, and that's weird. Anyway...

Had a great time last night at the fam's house! I really think Luke has a crush on Olivia... She thinks so too! Too bad Olivia's going out with Luke's sister!!! ME!!! ;)

Speaking of Olivia... She can make me do some crazy things... Here's a pic. This was like right around 7pm and everyone was outside in the backyard. She said hop in the hot tub (heat's not turned on, it's too hot outside for that)

She then said, "Take your top off and let me take a pic and then post it tomorrow."

I was like, "Everyone's out here, no way..."

She then stick out her bottom lip and pretended to do her cute little pout and give me her super sad, puppy dog eyes... "Pwease, do it fow me, Bweely..."

How could I resist. I hopped in the hot tub and looked around and actually no one was looking. I slipped my top off and posed. The pic is cute! Here it is...

 So... Got any quick lunch suggestions out there?

Bye!

So Ready to Jump in the Pool Right Now...

Just got to my parents house after going to pick up Olivia at my house. We got our stuff and loaded the car up and headed to my "Old Folks Home." The pool is calling my name. Did this video on the vine and put it on here!!! Posting this on on my phone. Not as easy as on the computer, but it works! Crazy me!!! Hee hee!

SO ready to just chill out and hang out with the fam tonight, and Olivia. I think my bro will be here later, so that's cool too! I love my bro! Well, both of them and my sister too! Glad my dad's feeling better. Had the stomach bug. Mom said she lysoled the whole house 3 times to make sure the germs were all gone! Gotta love her!!! Feeling kinda hyped up for some reason right now. Guess it's because I feel better. The "." is about 90% finished!!! WOO HOO!!!

Anyway! Gonna go change and hop in the pool for a bit before we eat!!! I just love seeing O in a two piece... Almost as good as seeing her naked!

BYE!!!

I Think I'll Take a Little Dip...

Got to my parent's house and no one was home. No prob, I still have a key! Stepped in the house and called Mom. She said that they had gone to the store for a bit and to make myself at home. Well, duh, that's what I plan to do. She said they'd be home in like 15 minutes so I headed up the stairs to my old room and sat down on the bed and just looked around. I really have no memory of this room. 

I know what kinda stuff went on in here when I was Brendan but not a single memory as Bree. This is so bizarre... I checked in some of the drawers and most of the stuff had been cleaned out. They are used as mainly storage now and this room is used as a guest room. I opened the huge closet and did see a few pairs of shoes in there. Mostly dressy shoes and a pair of black high heels... I was tempted. I'll have to admit, I've done a little cross dressing in the past, but not in high heels. This should be interesting... I slipped off my Cons and my socks and put them on my feet. They weren't too terribly high, maybe 2.5" and I stood up and braced myself against the wall, just in case. I took a step and then two.. three.. four.. then I was walking around the room, with no problem at all. Wow!!! Muscle memory or something had to have taken over. I did a little jog and did fine. Unbelievable!!! I ran back over to the closet and remembered something. As Brendan, I had stashed something in here. I hit the closet light and crawled to the back corner and the carpet was still loose. I pulled it up and saw the the floorboards were still movable and pulled the two short boards up. There it was - my lockbox. I had a few things in there that I wanted to keep hidden... like some dirty magazines and stuff... I remembered the code 3*48*7. I flipped the top open and there they were. My 4 favorite playboys ever from when I was like in Jr. High... WOW!!! I grabbed all four of them and as soon as I got them out of the box, they transformed into what looked like a girls diary... I dropped it immediately - I was totally freaked out. There was a little lock on it and I didn't see the key. Bummer. Right about then, I heard mom opening the door and yell, "Bree, where are ya?" It startled me a little and I threw the diary back in the box and it turned back into the playboys right before my eyes... What tha!!! I placed the boards back down and pulled the carpet back and got up and went back to the room as Mom was coming in.

"Hey," I said. "I'm loooking for a swimsuit. I was thinking about going to the beach for a bit. You haven't seen one of mine around here anywhere ha ya?"
"No. The last time Jenny was here she left a black one. It's here somewhere. Want me to find it?"
"Sure. That'd be great. Hey, I was wondering, is all my stuff still in the pool house?"
"Yeah, your dad and Luke were just talking about loading it up and getting it to you soon."
"Cool! I really need some of that stuff right about now."

She came over and gave me a hug.

"All my babies have grown up. You're a very beautiful woman now. I just want you to know that I'm proud of you!"
"Thanks, Mom," I said trying not to tear up. "I have a question for you... What's your best memory of me?"
"Well, that'd have to be when you got that job of yours. You were the youngest person to get hired on. It's really the memory of how excited you were. They had given you this huge project. You totally blew everyones mind with your design. They gave you the job very soon after that, like first semester in your senior year. I can tell you my worst memory..."
"Please do tell..."
"When you came home with that first tattoo!"
"Sorry... You should have just said I could get one... Then I probably wouldn't have... not right then anyway..." 

(Wow... I wonder which one it was. As Brendan, the first one I got was on the back of my right arm. I don't have one there now.) We laughed and hugged again.

"I see you found a pair of your old heels?'
"Yep, forgot about these (literally, sorta). I'm gonna take them with me..."
"And you should... Ok, I'm gonna go try to find the swimsuit... Be right back!"

I headed down the stairs, heels still on!?!?!? Wow forgot I was wearing them. Freaky!!! Headed back upstairs and threw them in my old room. Mom found the  the swim suit and suggested that I just stay here and go lay out by the pool. Well, I agreed. I could swim if I wanted here too and it was an awesome pool! She said that she knows how I like to "tan" and that dad wouldn't be home for maybe an hour.

I gave her a puzzled look and she said, "Umm... topless..."
"Oh, yeah. Ha. Of course..." 

I went out to the pool house with the swimsuit and saw all of my old stuff piled a mile high in boxes. There'll be time for that later, I wanna get in that pool I thought to myself... I went into the poolhouse bathroom and took off my clothes... There I was in the poolhouse, naked and a girl. I looked at myself in the mirror for a few minutes, just in awe of my new self, mt new "shell." I started to cry right there.I needed a good cry. So much going on right now. I sat on the closed toilet and ctied for maybe 10 minutes strait, just thinking about everything. Sometimes the crying was out of joy, sometimes out of fear or scared of the unknown. For whatever the reasons, it felt good to do it - just letting all my bottled up emotions from my recent girl past and my distant guy past go freely. I'm sure i was a mess and looked in the mirror and my make-up was everywhere. I washed my face with some hand soap and slipped on the swimsuit. It felt like bar and panties but as slicker and cooler on my skin. I posed a little bit and rubbed/ran my hands over my body. I grabbed some lotion out of the closet and did another take of my body oin the mirror - sexy, I though as I made my way to the pool. I knew the water might be a little chilly but I dove in anyway. Nipples were at full attention when I surfaced! I went under again and played with them for as long as I could hold my breath... a few times. So fun!!!

I swam for a little while then pulled out a chair and sat down to work on my tan for a bit. I got the suntan lotion and rubbed it on my body. I removed my top, hey, it's what mom said I did and it's just her here, and put some on my front side. That felt good too! I laid down on my belly and gave myself a wedge, put some lotion down there too, and got settled in just to remember something. I got my phone and set it for 30 minutes and took this pic. Thirty minutes is how long Jenny used to stay out here and our coloring is about the same... hopefully I won't get toasted.

Wow! Dat ass!!! I'm quite lucky!

30 minutes on the back and thirty on the front. I will admit though, I did put my top back on for the front. Not ready to do that just yet. Dad could be home at any moment... Timer went off as I had just fallen asleep... I got up and jumped back in the pool to cool off! I thought it would be a good idea to get out of the sun. I used 50 sunblock, but this Miami sun can scorch you in a hurry!!! 

I went to the pool house and got my clothes and a towel and dried off and wrapped the towel around my waist and headed back in the house. Dad was home and he and mom were eating a sandwich and watching TV. She asked if I wanted one and I said I did and went back upstairs to change back into my clothes. I came back down and mom had made me a turkey sandwich, come chips and a glass of tea. What an awesome mom! I ate and then chatted for a while. Dad asked about my week and although it's been crazy, I told him it had been pretty good. We all hugged, said goodbyes then I left. I so wanted to take that journal home but was freaked out by the magic still at work there. Maybe I'd come back again tomorrow after work and go through some of my old stuff and then take it home with some other stuff I find. If that metal box had limited the magical powers, I wondered if my safe at home had done the same... one reason to get on home. 

I got home and just chilled out. Watched some tv and snacked a bit. I guess I should start being careful about what I eat, really... Has my belly gotten bigger in a week? lol! Maybe one more post to come tonight. 

About to go crack the safe!

                                                       

Today was a Full Day, to Say the Least!

Went to the office before I went to my parents to check on some stuff I had in the works for Monday around 10:45am. And good grief, Bob was in the office two doors down, the intern/extra office, and walked over to mine and asked if I was sick or something this week... I thought that was his car in the parking lot. I guess, from looking at pics of me that I have at my house, I usually wear make-up and have my hair done somewhat nicely. I was like, "No, I'm fine. Just, umm, trying something different..." He was like, "Oh.. ok... interesting. Well, you look nice today."  

I look pretty good today, right? 

"Thanks,' I said, giving him a thumbs up which somehow turned to a middle-finger sticking up when he left!!! He's always been a self proclaimed "ladies man" even thought most of the girls can't really stand him. Add one more to the pot! I guess he's not that bad looking for a guy, that's the only thing going for him. It was a little icky talking to him, with him kinda looking me up and down, very non-chalantly though. I wasn't even wearing anything revealing. Just what I normally wear... You guessed it. Jeans and t-shirt and a thin, leather jacket!!! Lol! I mean, come on dude, not that he knows this, but I can see right through that, I used to be a guy like a few days ago. I tried really hard to just be normal and talk to him like the guy me would have. That's my new goal. Just act normal. I know I look totally different but for the most part, I'm still me. Just be me, Bree! I was a pretty crazy person. No need to change all that just because I'm a girl now!!!

Mom's House...
Got there around 12:05 and they were in the yard playing Bocce. My parents are still so active and competitive. Got some big hugs from both of them. Dad squeezed me so tight I thought my right boob was gonna pop! He was a middle linebacker for the Hurricanes in college. He wrapped me up and picked me up like I was a rag doll. 

"Dad, put me down," in a really playful way. 
He responded with, "So good to see ya, Cindy B, how's my baby girl" as he set me down, ever so slightly.
"Don't call me that! You know I don't like that," I said while giving him a much smaller right hand punch to the gut. They used to call me Charlie B all the time. My first name was Charles. "I'm fine.. and hungry. What are we having?"
"I grilled some burgers. Should be finished right about now!"
"Cool! You know how I love your burgers!"

We went to the backyard and I could smell the burgers cooking.

Heck Yes!!! So good!

Brought back old memories. Now I get to make some new ones as Bree sitting right there in that backyard, enjoying my new life. Tearing up again... So happy! Mom was pouring tea in glasses, I just heard my brother pulling up! Wow! It's like the perfect family now. How I've wanted my life to be for so many years. All we were missing were Thomas and Jenny, my other bro and sis... We ate and chatted. I mostly just listened to everyone talking about their life and would respond when asked. Mom and Dad also updated us on T and J. There both planning on coming home for Memorial Day. I'm so excited to see sis!!! We're sisters. I'm a sister to someone!!! I just wanted to sit back and enjoy this. My brother, Luke, kept looking my way and smiling. 

When we finished eating he said, "Let's go swing, like we used to when we were little." 
"Ok," I said. "Let's go. But, you do know I can still go higher than you, right?"
"Not in your dreams, little girl," he said as we both sprinted over there to start swinging.

My butt in the swing alerted me to how much bigger it is now. Wow, bubble butt alert or so it felt... 

"Sis, you seem different, more alive or somethng. I don't know. You seem much happier or something."
"Well, I am happy. I feel like, for maybe some "magical"reason, my life has aligned with the "stars" and everything is how it should be. Ya ever feel that way?"
"Yeah, I guess sometimes. Well, I'm happy for ya. Good for you."

Just then, David from down the street came around the house and I could hear mom offering him a burger, which he accepted. Not many people have turned one of dad's grilled burgers. He fixed his plate and walked toward us.

"Hey Luke! Hey... Bree...," he said, much more shy-like to me than to Luke.
"What's up David. I see you got some lunch," Luke replied.
"Yeah, I saw the smoke and figured your dad was grilling out. You know I never pass up a Mr. McAdams burger."
"Oh yeah. They're the best. So, whatcha up to? Wanna throw some football or something?"
"Sure, sounds like fun... Umm, Bree, you wanna come throw some, too?"
"Oh, sure. Back here or in the front yard."
"Let's just go to the park. We can walk there. That cool with you guys?"
"Sure."
"Sure"

We headed for the park and just talked a little while. Kinda like the old times. The park is like 7 lots down from the McAdams household and when we got there, we set up in a triangle, about 10 yards apart or so and started to throw. Luke threw to David, David to me and then I threw back to Luke. I could tell David wasn't throwing nearly as hard as he used to throw to me when I was a guy. I really hated that! I can catch.. I hope!!!

The next time he threw to me, I threw it back to him pretty hard and said, "That's how ya throw Davey-Boy. Quit throwing like a girl!," and kinda laughed. 
"Sorry, sorry. I forget sometimes who you are. You're a McAdams girl. You know, not all girls can throw a football like you! You're quite a standout in that area, in my book anyway!" 

I think he was kinda shocked, but he recovered well! Good, I thought. I like shocking people! Lol! We threw for like 30 minutes and then we headed back to the "Old Folks Home" and just sat on the deck and talked. About nothing really. Just about work and stuff. Luke went in to watch some show and then it was just me and David. 

"So Bree... are you seeing anyone at the moment?"
"Are you asking me out, David?"
"Umm.. no.. umm... well... I... umm... I... It just seems like we used to talk about stuff like that or something in the past..."
"Well, I'm not at the moment. I'm not dating anyone right now out of choice. Figuring out some things, I guess. What about you? You seeing anyone?"
"Nope. Not right now..."
"Well then, you wanna go inside and watch some TV with Luke and dad?"
"Nah... I think I'll head on home. Dad mentioned something about working on the old Mustang this afternoon. Think I'll go see how that's coming. Good to se ya though. You, umm... look great... as always... see ya next time."
"Thanks David. You're too sweet. Bye."

Not a bad kid, super nice. For a guy, not bad in the looks department either. I can't believe he was that up front. Was he really asking me out? I mean, I guess he has to have some messed up memories of us in the past. We did talk about stuff like that. We'd talk about girls we were dating and the likes. I should have just answered his question I guess. Oh well, shock value at full force today!

I went in and saw all the family pics with me as Bree in them with my famliy. Made my heart flutter a bit. Almost teared up and cried... I kept it in though, somehow. I watched some Sportscenter with Luke and Dad and fell asleep on the couch, just like always. We woke up around 5:15 and mom was wondering if we wanted to go out for dinner. I said it'd have to be fast because I had band practice at 7. She said ok and we got ready to head out for dinner. We went to The Chili's on Biscayne Blvd and had a great time. I even drank a beer for the first time as a girl. I'm not a big drinker at all, so I was hoping that it wouldn't affect me too much. I really hated the taste. God, so disgusting now. I also ordered my usual, Dr. Pepper with cherry juice and no ice! 

I had to head out early and said my goodbyes. Dad demanded that he pay for mine which had my brother whining. He was really kidding but it was funny! He's so funny! I left and headed for practice. 


Band Practice...

As soon as I got there, I was introduced as "our chick guitar player" by John, out drummer, to one of his friends he brought. He didn't even mention my name. Had he at least mentioned my name, I wouldn't be so upset. But with both of them just standing there checking me out, that's a no-no! I didn't say anything then, but I knew later that I'd be setting a few things strait. I had to! Not gonna let that crap get started. 

Practice went really well! We rehearsed our set a couple times and then kinda really got in a groove and almost wrote a whole new song there on the spot. I ended up doing a lot of the vocals for the new song. Mostly just humming melody... We recorded a rough, live demo so we wouldn't forget it. And, that's another thing. Now that I'm a girl, I don't have trouble hitting the high harmony parts!!! And no one else in the band has a "girl" voice so I have something special!!! And I plan on using it!!! Too bad I still can't play guitar and sing that well at the same time. It has to be strait rhythm and not syncopated stuff or I can't sing and play at the same time. Another thing, and I know this is kinda calling the kettle black, but I still can't believe I'm a "chick lead guitarist" in a band. What I am now, I used to and still do think are so hot! Girl guitar players are just so freakin' hot!!!  

After practice, I followed John to the patio to talk to him. It was weird and uncomfortable, but I stood my ground. I felt really good after I did it... empowered. I just told him that I didn't appreciate that comment. Im not some "trophy" to be flaunted or shown around to his friends. I could tell that he might be a little drunk... That's ok with me, as long as he keeps the rhythm going and steady. He said that he didn't have to take this and started to walk away. I then said, "What if I introduced you as 'our dick-head guy drummer,' would you like that." He said, "Whatever." "Just don't let it happen again or you can, first of all, leave the drum sticks you're playing with here cause I bought them, and then you can head on out the door and just not come back!" I mean, I'm a co-founder of the band with Josh, our singer and rhythm player. John has always had an attitude problem and he thinks a lot with his dick and not his other head. Dumb Ass!

Anyway... I think Josh overheard some of that. He came up and said, "Wow. You really told him. Good job. He needs to be put in his place every ones in a while. Sorry it had to happen though..." I said I wasn't gonna let it slide. I then asked it he could take a pic of me with my phone. Mom wanted a pic of me with my guitar to show someone. Looks like I am "trophy" after all. Damn. 

Here's the pic from practice, taken by Josh. We practice in his basement sometimes. Had to go to the bathroom and touch up my make-up before he took it though! He didn't know that's why I went. That's such a girly thing to do!!! Lol! My hair looks so much longer in this pic... Used the straightener on it this morning... Wore my old, faded jean jacket that was at my parent's house just because it's cool! It is cool, right!?!?!?

I then packed up my guitar and told the guys bye and headed home. It was about 10:15 when I pulled in and I was so tired. What a long day! Sooo sleeeeepy... Decided to blog a little cause I knew this day was full of stuff to tell about. Wrote most of it and then just flopped down on the couch, kicked my shoes off and laid there for a while. My bra was really cutting into me for some reason under my right boob so I took off my shirt, then bra and then started back watching TV. It wasn't long 'till I realized that I was laying there topless with jeans and socks on. Looking down at myself, the perspective I was seeing, was so amazingly hot!!! And yes, of course I took pic after I got my jeans off!

One of the best views I've ever seen!

It didn't take long for my hands to find their way to my boobs and then the rest of my clothes started to come off... I'll leave it at that... but it was good! I fell asleep on the couch. Woke up at around 4:35am and finished this post... Sorry it's so long... Oh myyy, stilll so tired... Nighty night!