Show Tonight/Feel Like Crap...

Monthly Visitor came last nigh. Just in time for the show tonight. I'd rather be really bitchy then feel this bad and have to play. It's really bad right now so I better get some iron in me and fast.

I managed a half smile just for you guys and gals... Yea! Go me!

I might go get a burger but I don't feel like getting up. I so wish I was at Tonya's last night! She'd go get me one for sure!

Have to be at sound check at 4:30. The venues just right outside of town. I hope it's not hot in this place. I don't want to be hot tonight.

I have a terrible headache and did I mention that I'm bleeding from my girl parts!!! Ugg...

Bye.

What an End to Last Week!!!

I think I'm finally getting caught up on sleep and it's taken me forever!!! so Here's the rundown on the craziness!

Wednesday Night - Long Ass Rehearsal!

Thursday Afternoon - Tripped and fell and 'sprained my right wrist really badly. Thank god it wasn't my left one, then I couldn't play guitar. Well, I would have tried and I probably would have done it, but it would have hurt like hell!

Friday - Slept in till like 1pm and then was lazy until around 4:00pm. Had to be at the venue for the show at 5pm for sound check and I was late... Got there around 5:31 and everyone was waiting on me. Yikes!!! Show went well, really well although my wrist was hurting like hell. Made holding my pick feel really awkward! Anyway, Tonya couldn't go for some reason so no pics really... Just two I downloaded from the venue's website today. If I'm not careful, I'm gonna have to start paying Tonya for being my personal photographer!

Me and Allen rocking out. Hmm, interesting...

In a trance or something it looks like! Oh yeah, wrist probably hurting here...
Should have kept my brace in it during the show.

Well, me and Luke are about to go do some shopping!

Wrist is throbbing so I guess it's time for more tylenol! I might end up getting some x-rays tomorrow, I just don't know yet.

Also, no real cramping this last week and my monthly visitor showed up this morning. Yea!?!?! I was wondering where it was... Like 2 days late and kinda light... Weird...

Almost Merry Christmas!!!

Feeling Really Bad...

Today or tomorrow should be the day for my monthly visitor... I feel totally like shit today. Just laying in the bed and looking around on youtube and trying to figure out the best way to get some of our songs onto the blog... Oh... damn... there it is. Gotta go!

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Costume Actually Coming Along Nicely

I knew the minute I saw this anime Lady Vader art that I wanted to cosplay the costume. However, when I started to show some of my friends, I got a few concerned “Wow, that’s ambitious!” comments, especially from Tonya. I mean, could I actually pull it off? Would I look ridiculous in all that armor? My head was full of questions about how comfortable I would be, whether or not I could even make everything in time, and if I would even look right as this character. But in the end, so far, I've had so much fun and am really proud of myself and mom for helping me with this and we've both learned a few new things along the way. So with that, I wanted to share a brief tutorial and the progress pics I took along my journey of making Lady Vader!

The first thing me and mom made so far is the 2 piece suit, which was made entirely of a matte stretch PVC fabric. The stretch came in handy since the back of the top and back of the leggings were not quilted and the fabric was also just the right thickness that I could quilt it without being super bulky. To quilt all the front pieces (front of top, arms, and front of leggings), we drew chalk lines on the stretch PVC (about 3/4″ apart) and sewed the 3 layers together – the stretch PVC, batting, and a thin layer of stretch mesh spandex on the inside.

Once we made the basic front and back of the top, we added a mock neck and sleeves. As for the leggings, I only quilted these about halfway down since I knew I would be wearing tall boots or shin guards.

The leggings and the full suit!

I made the decision early on to eliminate Vader’s outer cape. I really liked the way the inner cape looked feminine and kind of like a dress so I was very specific in draping it a certain way. Mom, being the seamstress she is, already had this wonderful dress form just for this!

Before and after of the draped inner cape.

So, that's how far I'm along on it now. I plan on getting with Luke tonight to work on the armor and electronics and all the other stuff, like maybe modding up the helmet a bit, if I even wear one with this. So far, so good! Once again, THANKS MOM!!! Only thing is I'm worried about is that I'm kinda bloated, big-time this month. Might need to make it a little more snug than the tape around my waist is showing... Yep, you guessed it. Monthly visitor. Yea. :(

Last Day in Essex...

Well, it's my last day here and me and Melody and some of her friends are going shopping in London! I can't wait. I've always wanted to go to London.

On the train sitting across from Melody. I'm so ready to get off and spend some pounds!

I bought a ton of stuff. Not so sure how to get it all back! Ha! I'll probably have to ship it to myself in a big box or something. Lots of cool Beatles stuff and Star Wars stuff! I'd stumbled upon this Star Wars shop in London online one time and had to find it while I was here. We headed to the address and turned a corner and BAM!!! There it was! I was in heaven. It's called www.jedi-robe.com and it is amazing. Spent about £1000! Paid the taxi driver to just stay with us so that was cool! Here are some pics...

I was in heaven. I bought that Leia costume pictured and a Jedi costume. Gonna have to probably alter both of them, but my mom can do that when I get back. Also bought a cool trooper helmet and lots of other cool stuff.

I also bought some clothes, not that I need any but, ya know, I was in London and the stores were so cool and the stuff was amazing.

Heading back to the SINSTAR office now with all my stuff and then they are taking me back to the airport to head back across the pond. So, I guess I'll write again when I'm back in the USA! And ugg... Monthly Visitor arrived this morning. Perfect timing for being trapped in a plane for like 6 hours. Yea! :(

Bye!

Tootles!

Workout time for Bree!

So, it was time to hit the gym. I have a rekindled passion for getting into shape now! I can't wait to work out and get toned and get in shape. I just hope that I can keep it up and the fire and desire to work out won't go away like it usually does.

Tonya brought me to one of the gyms she used to train at when she boxed. It was a hard core place. Lots of woman boxers here. I didn't realize there was such a popularity in the sport of women's boxing. Lots of guys here also, but lots of women too. We went to the weights first and it was quite funny. When I was a guy, I could lift a good bit. But now, I could barely get the bar lifted on the big weights. I don't really know what this contraption pictured was called, but I'm sure I'm gonna be sore! I moved around a bit and did a few machines and then Tonya was gonna go into the ring and hit around with a friend of hers, no head contact she told me...

I was on an elliptical and saw her over there and I was really shocked at how good she moved in the ring and how fast her hands were moving. It was hard to believe she got so beat up in her last fight. Something definitely must have happened to her that night. I got off of the bike and stood by the ring for a bit and when she was finished, I hopped in and took this super sexy pic of her. Mmm... she it so hot!

We then headed for the showers, separate ones... and then went out for dinner at a place she picked and she made me get a salad and water to drink. Worst meal ever. I so wanted Pizza Hutt! Oh well...

We headed back to her place and watched Master and Commander. I stayed over there last night so that meant I was a bit later getting in to work here this morning for various reasons... Gotta get some posters designed for a client today and finish up some other things.

Also, monthly visitor this morning. Yea. :(

PEACE!

This is not Good!

I was about to get up to go to the bathroom and check things and then head to lunch with Olivia when I felt it hit and I almost lost my balance. Completely draining. Maybe it was coupled with me getting up too fast... Luckily I was still near my desk and kinda made it back to my chair and just flopped my upper body down on my desk. It felt like so much stuff just exited me... I quickly called Olivia and told her to just get some food for us and come here, that it was really bad and I probably couldn't drive right now. I waited a little bit and then I felt a little better and stood up slowly and made my way to the bathroom... I'll spare the details this time... It was bad,  that's all. Really bad.

Olivia got me the biggest cheeseburger she could find and made me eat the whole thing... I was kinda shocked because she's had me on a health kick lately, her and Tonya both. We talked a bit and she brought up the whole "Deon" thing and I told her that I didn't want to talk about it now but maybe when I got home. That's where we left it. She left and now I'm about to get back to work.

I didn't sleep well last night on top of all of this. I feel like I'm just sitting here, a shell of myself. Like I'm floating or something. It's taken me forever to to type this...

Until next time, if there is one...

Bree

Back at Work Today.

I'm feeling better. Kind of ironic that I start feeling better and/but soon I'll start bleeding out... How absolutely perfect...

Anyway, I'm meeting O for lunch. She's gonna make sure I eat properly today... 

Doing the all natural thing today. Screw the "war" paint.

Managed a half smile...

Come on period. Let's just get this over with...

B

I Feel Terrible...

Just called in to work. Feel like shit. Physically and emotionally spent. I think O's worried. I'm sure I'll be fine... Just don't want to deal with anything right now.

Been laying in the bed with Molly. Did my nails. Trying to get my mind so slow down and chill out now. I don't think I ate anything yesterday.

I love my kitty!

Wanted something kinda different... Bloody fingernails anyone?

I went over to Tonya's today. I really wanted some of her cooking. I was getting really hungry by late afternoon. I also left her a little surprise on her blog -- I did what Olivia had done to me before... A Bree guest post!!!

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At a Loss Right now...

I just don't.. I can't post anything right now. I'm so confused... I'm sorry to who ever follows me here. I'm a bit messed up right now. Emotions haywire and this damn PMS and these crazy thoughts and I can't figure it out. I'll try to get a grip soon...

Mother F&%king Nature...

Olivia just told me that she was kidding and can't wait to move in with me! That's the good news!!! I'm gonna have to get her for putting me through that!!! She better be on the lookout!

So, I also kinda figured out why I was so emotional when Olivia was teasing me about not moving in. She just told me that her monthly visitor is here... So, if it's like last month, mine will be here soon. Yea... Can't wait...

Guess I better start taking my vitamines more regularly than I have been... Don't want to pass out again. Not fun!

I'm out for now...

B

Home Sweet Home!!!

Just got out of the shower... I feel so dirty. Anyways, naked pic time, well, kinda... Feeling a little better with the Midol flowing through my body. I hope I don't overdose on that stuff!!! I do feel really weak... Just look in my eyes... Tired and weak...

Feels good to be clean, if for just a little while...

Since Olivia has developed quite a liking for romantic movies and romantic comedies, we're gonna watch City of Angels! A good ole Nick Cage and Meg Ryan flick!!! It'll be good to get on the couch and snuggle and watch a good movie. We can't do much else right now anyway!!! I mean we could... but.. gross!!!

Nighty night!!!

My Uterus is a Selfish Bitch.

Didn't my uterus "supposedly" just get a new lining like a month ago... uuugghhhh... I know this signifies I'm truly a woman, but I want this over. Pic I just took after this write-up...

Hair actually wasn't that bad after it dried by itself this morning.
Put on a little lipstick, eyeliner on the bottom and mascara as well...

I was sitting at my desk working and I just couldn't take the "pad" anymore. I felt too much like a diaper. I had some tampons in my purse so I decided to go to the bathroom and "insert" one. I got up and headed in to the bathroom. I sat down and looked down and myself... GROSS!!! I wrapped the  bloody, used pad up in a huge wad of TP and then remembered that my purse was sitting on my desk. As I feel some "stuff" leaking out that very moment, I panicked... What am I gonna do?"

I balled up a big think of TP and stuffed it in my panties and pulled them up. GOD, my and this bathroom have shared some moments!!! I walked very awkwardly back to my office and sat down. I couldn't go back to the bathroom just now could I? 

I decided to wait like 30 minutes and go to the one in the lobby...

Time was up, I got up and saw no visible leakage. Headed to the lobby and sat down, pulled down my pants and, umm... gross again. Leaked through the TP and all over my panties and a little on the crotch of my jeans, but now much... Dammit!!! I flushed the TP and decided to put in the tampon... Now, where are those directions Olivia wrote down...

1. Sit on the toilet with your legs apart.
2. Make sure the string is hanging outside the barrel.
3. Take your left hand and spread your "pussy" lips apart. (Not really feeling like calling it that right now...)
4. Find your "pussy." (Really?)
5. Hold the applicator and place your index finger at the end of the applicator. That's the part where the string is hanging out.
6. Slide the tampon into your vagina aiming toward your butt-bone. Stop when your fingers touch your body. (I'm not getting my fingers that close...)
7. Push the tampon in until the smaller tube is inside the larger tube.
8. Remove the applicator. Make sure the string is hanging out.
9. Wash your hands and clean up.

Sounded easy enough... It wasn't that bad. Got it in correctly the first try! Headed back to my office.

So, it's like 3:15 and I'm ready to go home. Also, got a call from someone today... An interesting call at that!

Hopefully I'll write some more tonight...

Bye!

It's Here. Present and Very Much so Accounted for

Woke up at 6am... Yeah. It's here. Gross. Work's gonna be a blast today, I'm sure... Gonna be a ponytail day for Bree today for sure... Might just keep this hoodie on all day, too.

But... like I said yesterday, part of the territory. Just a really gross part. And, I think I really need to trim my "undergrowth." Monthly visitor found it's way into the forest and was camping out there some... Sorry for saying that... EEWWWWW.....

OLIVIA!!!! Get in here!!!!

And the Revelations Keep Pouring in...

I was reading and looking at the pics of O's post a while ago and I was able to probably conclude the reason why I've felt so bad and been so crabby for about the last past week... I think I'm about to have my special, monthly visitor...

It's one of those things that comes with the territory. I'm not happy about bleeding from my vaginal area, but, it does mean that I'm fo rizzle a woman! I mean, I'm almost welcoming it with a little bit of anxiety though. I mean, it's pretty scary! I just talked with O about her first one. She said it was bad and very heavy and that it totally drained her energy and she felt very weak and depressed... Wow! Yikes! Damn, I never thought I'd be talking to a girl, who used to be a guy, about me having my period with me being a girl that was also transformed into a girl as well. I just went to my bathroom and put a... maxi-pad, with wings, into my panties. Super sexy... I know, right? Feels weird having that extra material between my legs. I'll probably go the tampon route once it starts, I guess. I'll just have to see. O said that's what she did and she can help me with it if I want her to...

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