Spent the Night at Tonya's...

Had to write this before I forgot too much!

I went to meet up with Tonya yesterday to talk about some things. After our photoshoot Sunday the 2nd, I stayed with her and we, well, hooked up. After a few drinks and just being around her, I couldn't, we couldn't take it anymore. We made love and I ended up waking up the next morning naked in her bed and she was gone with a note left for me there on her dresser. She said she loved her time with me but she had to get away for a while. The note went into further details saying she went to Arizona to visit her grandmother whom she had recently learned about and was not sure when she would be back... I was really shocked and started to tear up a bit. And, I had really overslept, had no clothes and was really late for work, too! 

So, last night, I met up with her at a nightclub to talk about that. I just told her that I was really confused when I woke up like that and though I'd done something wrong. I was really kinda heartbroken because I thought what we did was something she was wanting to do as well. We got that mini-mess straightened out and then two guys started hitting on us and offered us drinks. The first guy that came over said that he saw me at one of my band's shows and blah, blah, blah... Hey, free drinks, right? It was ok, just talking to them until the one guy, what was his name, oh yeah, douche-bag. We just sat there talking and stuff until douche-bag, a little drunk mind you, started to feel up my leg. I pulled away and he scooted over more and did it again. I politely asked him to stop and he didn't... I got up and said to Tonya it's time to leave and she threw the rest of her drink in his face... Well, that got him to stop. I think she also kicked him hard in the shin. He was doubled over when I looked back on our way out.

We headed back to her place and ended up in a loveseat on her patio overlooking the ocean with her head in my lap and I was just playing with her hair and stroking her back. I just wanted to relax. I mean, I'm still on the "rag," although I was too embarrassed to tell Tonya that at first. I also felt that every time we're alone, it turns into sex... I thought about it and told her this... this is kinda personal...

...I want to do this so bad but... I also made a deal with myself that I would just, this time, well... I just want to spend some time with you that's not completely and overtly sexual in nature. I mean, like, I am turned on right now but I just wanted this time to be a time to hang out and snuggle and bond as friends... I'm sorry... You turn me on so much and I, for me just wanted to prove to myself that I could spend time alone with you that wouldn't turn in to sex. It's just a me thing... I'm just trying to work on control and being in control of me... and not just lashing out sexually every chance I get... Doing what I'm wanting to do now is so damn hard with someone like you here in my arms. but I feel like I have to do it, for my sake. I hope you understand... My sex drive seems to always be in 6th gear, especially around you girls who have transformed... I know that our "encounters" are few and far between mostly, but, I really want this one to be about us just enjoying being with and around and near each other... I'm so sorry if I completely ruined what you wanted for tonight... Please don't take this the wrong way... I really feel deeply for you... I really do!

So... we just lay there until I started feeling dizzy. T helped me to her bed and made me some food and I started feeling better. I texted O to tell her what was going on and she asked if she wanted her to pick me up but I told her I'd be ok here at Tonya's. I haven't really eaten much since this period started so I guess I was just physically spent. I fell asleep with her playing with my hair while watching Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull. 

I was woken up by her putting a big necklace on me and from the smell of something delicious cooking. After I rubbed my eyes a few times, I hate sleeping in make-up, she wanted to take a pic of me looking all sleepy. I turned around and posed the best I could. I didn't want to do it but she insisted! I was sure I looked great with crazy hair and make-up all under my eyes, but I did it anyway. She sent me the pic. She said I look really sexy in it. Here it is... Don't I just look great!?!?!? mmm hmm...

Actually, I kinda like this look!!!
Might go for this the next time the band plays...

So... I got up and we ate, some amazing French Toast, and then I had to take a shower but T really wanted some... loving... I agreed to do her but she was to not touch me. I hoped in the shower for a few minutes and get as clean as I could in like three minutes and then she hopped in. Well... she got what she wanted, believe me! And she seemed to really like it! 

I borrowed some of her clothes, not her bra though... One cup swallowed my whole damn chest!!! Hee Hee!!! ;) Have you seen those hooters that girl has! Check them out here on her blog!!! I finished getting ready and I let a secret out... Oops... BIG TIME!!! We also thought it would be cool to double date - Me and Olivia and her and Dani. Go to a fancy resturant then go see maybe The Man of Steel or something... Sounds like fun!!!

Now I'm at work and feeling lots better!!! My mom called me like an hour ago to check up on me again. She said to be sure to take my vitamins and that I'm borderline anemic!!! So that's why I haven't been feeling well and almost passed out last night!!! Makes sense now! Lost lots of blood.. Iron low... Not really eating...

Is it bad that I can't stop staring at that pic of myself... *blush*

Oh yeah... Dad is sick so the dinner at the "old folks home" has been moved until tomorrow... Bummer... I guess I'll have to drag myself home to Olivia... ;)

Bye for now! One hour left at work!!! Woo Hoo!!!

Naughty Me...

I don't know why I wanted to do this... But.. Here are some selfies I just took up in my office... I even left my door open... My heart was racing so fast... There are a few more that I took, but I wasn't ok, as of right now, about posting them... Ya know, ones with my boobies/tits in them... I think lots of people would have to ask real nicely to see those! Anyway... Enjoy!

Heading to My Parents House (Olivia better behave herself...)

SO much has happened since Friday.. OMG!!! I can't wait to find time to write about it on here. Anyway, we're about to head over to me parents house. It's like 4:35pm right now and we were supposed to be there at 4pm. Gonna be so late!!! Olivia says she has to look perfect and everything... She's freaking!!! lol! I keep telling her it's no big deal... And, Olivia, you better behave yourself!!! And, she drank all my Dr Pepper so I had to drink a Coke!!!

Should be a good time. My whole family is supposed to be there - both brothers and my sister... Gonna say that Olivia is a friend from work and had nothing to do today, which is Memorial day. Anyway, things are going great between us. We're having... umm, lots of fun and getting to know each other quite well... You won't believe what my safe did to things in both of our lives... Flipping amazing things... I can't even believe it, really. At some point today, I hope we have time to go and see about my diary... That should be an interesting look into Bree's/my life!!! Anyway, gott run!!! See ya. Oh, here's a pic! Got a swim suit under the shirt and shorts that I have on. Can't wait to swim... and show off Olivia to the fam!!!

Just one thing has been on my mind this whole weekend... not much, but always there, hanging out in the back... my meeting with Carolyn tomorrow... I'm ready to do it though but kinda anxious about it...

Bye!

One Hour 'Till Lunchtime!!!

T minus 1 hour!!! Totally stoked!!!

Magical Fail! and Vengeance on Me... Little Ole Me?

Oh this wonderful safe of mine. Looks normal, probably is. Waterproof. Fireproof. Magicproof... They sure didn't list that in the specs!!!

I went into the room off the garage and carefully opened it. I really can't remember what all is in here. What I saw blew me away... There on the top were my mortgage papers with the name C. Brendan McAdams on them - and I was freaking out... I just closed the safe door and sat there on the floor in front of it! Wow! So, the magic for some reason doesn't like to go through metal safe/locked boxes...
I opened it again. I slowly reached in and grabbed the packet and pulled it out. As soon as it was out, the name changed to C. Breeland McAdams and the house started to I guess shake. I threw it back in. That gave me a really weird feeling. Super creepy. What kind of forces am i really dealing with here... Had the little fine hairs on the back of my neck standing up...

Here was proof for Olivia. "Hey Olivia! If you're reading this, what's up girl!!!" Proof positive that I was magically changed. First the lockbox in my old room then this safe. Wow!!! I'm not gonna open it again until tomorrow. Maybe she can come over, and we can open it together. Well see after the meeting tomorrow!!!

I'm so freaked out right now. I sometimes visit these sites, more in the past than I do now as of this week, where they had captioned pics and stories depicting guys being turned into girls, for whatever reason. One of my favorite is Ecirava. I've even posted like 30 or so caps there myself!!! I remember reading a few of them on some sites where maybe a guy was to be granted a wish and he wanted to be a girl and have his identity match the girl and everyone remember him as the girl. In like most of these stories, if I remember correctly, the "magician" refused to do it because it would get messy. I knew this going in. I didn't care. It's getting messy. I can either look at this and be afraid or I can think of it as an adventure like no other... I mean who else has had this happen to them that I know about except like 2 other people... Me, Olivia and... Carolyn... She has read my blog and was transformed at the time she was reading it. She blames me and hates her new body and life. She says she's coming for me...

Just got back from getting ready to head out for a while and, here are the caps and comments on Ecirava... I had to get down and dirty with this bitch!!! She better be ready if she comes for me!!!

I believe it'd be best to enlarge them to view... So, yeah. Got this to deal with too!!!

Enought dwelling on this. Going to a club to see hear some music! Heading to Tobacco Road, a place where my band's played a good bit. We have a pretty good following there. Hopefully somebody good will be playing tonight. I need some good music. One good thing about music, when it hits you fell no pain! So hit me with music!!! - Bob M.

And Carolyn!!!

Until tomorrow!!! (So happy. Olivia!!!)

                                                                                          

I Think I'll Take a Little Dip...

Got to my parent's house and no one was home. No prob, I still have a key! Stepped in the house and called Mom. She said that they had gone to the store for a bit and to make myself at home. Well, duh, that's what I plan to do. She said they'd be home in like 15 minutes so I headed up the stairs to my old room and sat down on the bed and just looked around. I really have no memory of this room. 

I know what kinda stuff went on in here when I was Brendan but not a single memory as Bree. This is so bizarre... I checked in some of the drawers and most of the stuff had been cleaned out. They are used as mainly storage now and this room is used as a guest room. I opened the huge closet and did see a few pairs of shoes in there. Mostly dressy shoes and a pair of black high heels... I was tempted. I'll have to admit, I've done a little cross dressing in the past, but not in high heels. This should be interesting... I slipped off my Cons and my socks and put them on my feet. They weren't too terribly high, maybe 2.5" and I stood up and braced myself against the wall, just in case. I took a step and then two.. three.. four.. then I was walking around the room, with no problem at all. Wow!!! Muscle memory or something had to have taken over. I did a little jog and did fine. Unbelievable!!! I ran back over to the closet and remembered something. As Brendan, I had stashed something in here. I hit the closet light and crawled to the back corner and the carpet was still loose. I pulled it up and saw the the floorboards were still movable and pulled the two short boards up. There it was - my lockbox. I had a few things in there that I wanted to keep hidden... like some dirty magazines and stuff... I remembered the code 3*48*7. I flipped the top open and there they were. My 4 favorite playboys ever from when I was like in Jr. High... WOW!!! I grabbed all four of them and as soon as I got them out of the box, they transformed into what looked like a girls diary... I dropped it immediately - I was totally freaked out. There was a little lock on it and I didn't see the key. Bummer. Right about then, I heard mom opening the door and yell, "Bree, where are ya?" It startled me a little and I threw the diary back in the box and it turned back into the playboys right before my eyes... What tha!!! I placed the boards back down and pulled the carpet back and got up and went back to the room as Mom was coming in.

"Hey," I said. "I'm loooking for a swimsuit. I was thinking about going to the beach for a bit. You haven't seen one of mine around here anywhere ha ya?"
"No. The last time Jenny was here she left a black one. It's here somewhere. Want me to find it?"
"Sure. That'd be great. Hey, I was wondering, is all my stuff still in the pool house?"
"Yeah, your dad and Luke were just talking about loading it up and getting it to you soon."
"Cool! I really need some of that stuff right about now."

She came over and gave me a hug.

"All my babies have grown up. You're a very beautiful woman now. I just want you to know that I'm proud of you!"
"Thanks, Mom," I said trying not to tear up. "I have a question for you... What's your best memory of me?"
"Well, that'd have to be when you got that job of yours. You were the youngest person to get hired on. It's really the memory of how excited you were. They had given you this huge project. You totally blew everyones mind with your design. They gave you the job very soon after that, like first semester in your senior year. I can tell you my worst memory..."
"Please do tell..."
"When you came home with that first tattoo!"
"Sorry... You should have just said I could get one... Then I probably wouldn't have... not right then anyway..." 

(Wow... I wonder which one it was. As Brendan, the first one I got was on the back of my right arm. I don't have one there now.) We laughed and hugged again.

"I see you found a pair of your old heels?'
"Yep, forgot about these (literally, sorta). I'm gonna take them with me..."
"And you should... Ok, I'm gonna go try to find the swimsuit... Be right back!"

I headed down the stairs, heels still on!?!?!? Wow forgot I was wearing them. Freaky!!! Headed back upstairs and threw them in my old room. Mom found the  the swim suit and suggested that I just stay here and go lay out by the pool. Well, I agreed. I could swim if I wanted here too and it was an awesome pool! She said that she knows how I like to "tan" and that dad wouldn't be home for maybe an hour.

I gave her a puzzled look and she said, "Umm... topless..."
"Oh, yeah. Ha. Of course..." 

I went out to the pool house with the swimsuit and saw all of my old stuff piled a mile high in boxes. There'll be time for that later, I wanna get in that pool I thought to myself... I went into the poolhouse bathroom and took off my clothes... There I was in the poolhouse, naked and a girl. I looked at myself in the mirror for a few minutes, just in awe of my new self, mt new "shell." I started to cry right there.I needed a good cry. So much going on right now. I sat on the closed toilet and ctied for maybe 10 minutes strait, just thinking about everything. Sometimes the crying was out of joy, sometimes out of fear or scared of the unknown. For whatever the reasons, it felt good to do it - just letting all my bottled up emotions from my recent girl past and my distant guy past go freely. I'm sure i was a mess and looked in the mirror and my make-up was everywhere. I washed my face with some hand soap and slipped on the swimsuit. It felt like bar and panties but as slicker and cooler on my skin. I posed a little bit and rubbed/ran my hands over my body. I grabbed some lotion out of the closet and did another take of my body oin the mirror - sexy, I though as I made my way to the pool. I knew the water might be a little chilly but I dove in anyway. Nipples were at full attention when I surfaced! I went under again and played with them for as long as I could hold my breath... a few times. So fun!!!

I swam for a little while then pulled out a chair and sat down to work on my tan for a bit. I got the suntan lotion and rubbed it on my body. I removed my top, hey, it's what mom said I did and it's just her here, and put some on my front side. That felt good too! I laid down on my belly and gave myself a wedge, put some lotion down there too, and got settled in just to remember something. I got my phone and set it for 30 minutes and took this pic. Thirty minutes is how long Jenny used to stay out here and our coloring is about the same... hopefully I won't get toasted.

Wow! Dat ass!!! I'm quite lucky!

30 minutes on the back and thirty on the front. I will admit though, I did put my top back on for the front. Not ready to do that just yet. Dad could be home at any moment... Timer went off as I had just fallen asleep... I got up and jumped back in the pool to cool off! I thought it would be a good idea to get out of the sun. I used 50 sunblock, but this Miami sun can scorch you in a hurry!!! 

I went to the pool house and got my clothes and a towel and dried off and wrapped the towel around my waist and headed back in the house. Dad was home and he and mom were eating a sandwich and watching TV. She asked if I wanted one and I said I did and went back upstairs to change back into my clothes. I came back down and mom had made me a turkey sandwich, come chips and a glass of tea. What an awesome mom! I ate and then chatted for a while. Dad asked about my week and although it's been crazy, I told him it had been pretty good. We all hugged, said goodbyes then I left. I so wanted to take that journal home but was freaked out by the magic still at work there. Maybe I'd come back again tomorrow after work and go through some of my old stuff and then take it home with some other stuff I find. If that metal box had limited the magical powers, I wondered if my safe at home had done the same... one reason to get on home. 

I got home and just chilled out. Watched some tv and snacked a bit. I guess I should start being careful about what I eat, really... Has my belly gotten bigger in a week? lol! Maybe one more post to come tonight. 

About to go crack the safe!

                                                       

7th Morning as Bree! 7 is My Favorite Number!!!

Has it really been a week! This is just a quick post on me being Bree for a week this morning. Slept so well last night! Woke up with sleep lines all over my front side and left side of my face! Well, got up and showered and did make up and hair. I still can't believe what a difference doing make-up and hair can make. I'm getting so used to seeing myself all made-up now. I just love doing it. So much fun. I'm getting quite good and proficient at it as well! Of course I took pics! Do you really need to wonder?

Pic 1. Just woke up. Pic 2. Make-up and wet hair. Pic 3. Completed look!
Also did a quick photoshopping of the pic... Added an overlay layer... Hope you like it!

Off to work now! Hoping for a drama free day! As if!!! Laters!