More Pics Then Bedtime for Bree...

Full day of shooting wears a girl out! Finished up our studio shooting and then a lot of us went out on the town!!! Fun and I totally didn't drink too much and I feel so much better about myself right now. Slightly buzzed, but not totally wasted.

Van, David and Me. What a hot, power couple!!!

TONYA flys in tomorrow!!! Can't wait!

Now, for the last pics from Turkey and Greece. God, this trip has been amazing!!!

Last meal in Turkey

Me and my girls!

The crew, minus Vivian behind the camera

Smoking something......

Horseplay in the hotel!

Beach in Greece with my Nessa! So beautiful

Pooltime!!!

Last day in Greece and last time we'll all be together!
 Bye Dropdead group. I'll see ya on the next adventure!

Plane with Duncan and Andrew an the way back to England.

Super tired now. Gotta get some sleep!

Nighty Night!!!

Time to Celebrate the 4th!

Mom wanted everyone there early to hang and play games! They always try to make it fun, which it usually is! If it's one thing the McAdams are all about, it's fun involving games and competition! As soon as we got there, I saw dad in the garage and me and O went to chat. He was already going through the fireworks and I'll have to say that it was the most that he's ever bought!

"Dad! What in the world! Did you buy out a whole stand or something!?!?"

"Well hey there Bree! And how are you miss Olivia?"

"Doing good dad!"

"Me too Mr. McAdams!"

"I bought all these so we can compete with the Russels next door and win this time! I figured that we could all shoot. I think Thomas is coming sometime today to stay a few days. You up for some good ole firework neighbor competition, Olivia?"

"You bet! I love shooting fireworks!"

"Good to hear! Well, these are now all sorted and I have to go back in and help the Mrs. get dinner going and get the grill cleaned and ready. See you girls around!" He walked by me and gave me a kiss just as Luke walked in the garage.

"I bet he never did that to you as Brendan... Hey there.. Olivia!"

"Nope! He sure didn't!"

"Hey Luke. What's up?"

"Not much. What are you two about to do?"

"Swim, maybe. Is the floating goal in the water yet this year?"

"I just put it in! When Tommy gets here we can play some 2 - 2 but until then we can just swim or play 21..."

"Sounds like fun! We'll go change!"

"Yep. Let's go change!"

"See ya in tha pool!"

We went up to my old room and changed and ended up playing a little "purple nurple" on my old bed. With that game, I don't think there's ever a winner. All parties involved end up with sore, red, painful nipples. Fun though... kinda! ;)

We got in the pool, which was surprisingly warm, and started horsing around. Olivia just wanted to swim for the time being so me and Luke played some 1-1 on the floating goal. He won, dammit. He's so much taller than me now! Not too bad though... 15-10... Played one more game... worse... 15-8... We swam a little more and then O wanted to go lay out for a little while. Luke said he would too so we all dried off and headed for some lounge chairs.

Muh legs getting some Florida sunshine!!!

Thomas got there finally, pullin up in his new Defender 90. He came straight over to me, picked me up and threw me in the pool! I was kicking and screaming but he's just too big and strong for me to do anything about it!

He did a hulk pose and then Luke said, "You're sooooo strong Tommy! She weighs like what, a buck 15? Why don't you try to do that to me?"

"Ok! I will!" He walked over and Luke got up and they started to try to throw each other in the pool. Neither one seemed to have the upper hand from my vantage point dog-paddling in the deep-end. They were getting real close to the edge but no one was in yet. Olivia quitely got up and walked over to them. They didn't even see her. She just easily pushed them both in at the same time!!!

Everyone there cheered for her! "I win!" She then took a bow and then did a cannon ball into the deep-end right near me.

"Great job! Well done!"

"Thanks!"

"We played some 2-2 after that. Me and Luke against Olivia and Thomas. It was the closest game ever in McAdams history. We played to 15 and you had to win by two. The final score was... 28-26 in favor of... ME AND LUKE!!! Woo hoo!!! Olivia really surprised me with how good she was! You go girl! Right after the game ended, mom yelled out that it was time to eat.

The food was incredible! Salad with 3 different kinda of homemade dressing, grilled corn on the cob, french fries, burgers, steak, hotdogs and homemade ice cream and a Lemon Meringue pie for dessert! So glad I went to the gym this morning! Now, I'm gonna have to go 5 times tomorrow to work off all this food!

We finished eating and then chatted until we heard something next door... the Russels had shot the first preliminary firework signaling the start of the 2013 McAdams/Russel Fireworks WAR!!! It was on!!!

We got set up fast. We all knew what to do. Battle stations were manned/wo-manned... Mortars were loaded! Rockets set up! Mom had the huge Roman Candles ready. Ready for the first round or Shock & Awe!!! 3... 2... 1... UNLEASH THE MADNESS!!!

We set it off and totally blew away the Russels this year! They never knew what hit them! Here's a pic of the grand finale!

So! As you can see. We really do it up well! The Russels ran out this year about the time we got ready for the finale. They came over and admitted defeat and then we all hung out for a little while.

David made his way over but mostly just hung out with Luke. We did talk, but I could tell he was being a little weird. I wonder if he's seen the pics in the magazine yet... He probably has.

Anyway, we were about to head in. The "kids" always watch Independence Day after fireworks on the big screen ini the den. McAdams and Russels alike! Even David stayed this year. He does sometimes but lately he hasn't.  I love that movie!!!

After the movie, it was time to go. Me and Olivia packed up our things, said our goodbyes and headed out. Dad stopped me and said that mom and him were going to take a vacation and to check up on the place while they were gone. They were leaving Monday night. I told them I would and we were off...

On the way home, as we were pulling in the driveway, I "popped" the question...

"So, Olivia, I was thinking..."

"Don't hurt yourself Breely!" She giggled.

"Ha ha... very funny. Why don't you just sell your apartment and move in? Most of your stuff is already here and you are here like 90% of the time. Just move in already! I'd really like that!"

"I've been thinking about that too, Bree. I just don't know. That's a big step... My old life was at that apartment. I don't know if I wanna give it up yet. Let me think about it and I'll get back to you. Ok?"

"Ok... Yeah, just let me know when you're ready. I'm so tired... Can't wait to get some sleep."

"Me either but I gotta finish this program I've been working on... I might be up all night... You go on to bed and I'll join you when I can."

As we stepped in the door, she headed for the kitchen and her computer and I headed to my bed. That didn't go as I thought it would.

I just woke up and found O asleep on the kitchen table. Woke her a little and told her I was gonna go out and get a few groceries and things. She said ok and moped to the bed... I'm feeling a little down as I write this last part and remember that conversation from last night... :(

Oh well... off to the store with maybe a few tears in my eyes. One good thing is that I'm off today but looks like that will be sucked into the crappiness of the day.

Bye.

Found Something Interesting in the Diary!!!

Stuck in the back of my/Bree's diary was a printed out chat from guess who... me and David. He obviously thought something relationship wise was going on between us when I felt it wasn't...

Here's a little excerpt from it... This must have happened right after the treehouse incident that I blogged about here... Treehouse Incident

david1356: Yes I am pissed its not most toward you. But im more hurt you would choose his dumb self over me.
mcbree89: Im not choosing anybody...
david1356: He wants what I have. Lets start here.... Do you like me the way I like you?
mcbree89: Look, I like you as a friend... I just don't feel like being in a relationship. It's not you. Nobody said anything. And before u get mad, I don't like Ben and I'm not going out with him...
david1356: Well this is awkward. So was last time we were together cuz I thought you liked me and I really like you a lot. I thought thats why we hung out so much
mcbree89: I didn't know what I felt... I just don't know. I was trying to hang out like friends but I guess it led to something else.
david1356: Well you now have me and your mom so confused. So last night Nicole was right?
mcbree89: No, Nicole was very wrong. I don't want us to back off... I guess it's just me...
david1356: Bree, I know about the dating thing. Your mom told me. I can't "date" till i'm 15 either.
mcbree89: I can date whenever, but I just don't feel like being in a good relationship right now. I won't be dating anybody for a while.
david1356: So do you need me to leave you alone? I've waited to tell you I like you for over a year. I like you before I knew about Ben...
mcbree89: No, like I said. I know u are mad, sad and angry but I still want to be your friend...
david1356: I don't know what to tell you. I thought you liked me so I got excited. But now I don't know how to feel because you are saying you just want to be friends. So no I'm upset. And everyone told me when they asked about me and you that you would say yea you liked me and Jodi said you told  her we were basically dating. People told me things like: you smiled when people asked about me, you said we were basically together and you were happy when people asked. Your mom told me things like that happened at home so I honestly thought we had something special.
mcbree89: People thought we were dating because you gave me hugs and they thought we were going out but I said at the beginning we were not going out. They kept on asking me everyday if we were going out so to shut them up, I said we were basically going out. We do go out... but as friends, or so I thought...
david1356: See! trhat's wh y I thought that. I honestly need to know how we can in a nice way figure out how to be friends. You really had me thinking you liked me in a way I have liked you for over a year now.
mcbree89: I still wanna talk to you and say hey to you and be your friend. I am just a little confused about how to take this now. I will tell you one thing for sure. I don't like Ben so please don't be mad.
david1356: I don't care about him, yes he makes me mad as anything when he messes with you. Jealously I know. And when you un-confuse yourself please tell me what you come up with. Please don't think I'm overly mad at you. I'm confused, jealous and confused and mad.
mcbree89: I do not like BEN! I hope we can be friends.
david1356: We have no other choice!
mcbree89: I know you really like me. I was so worried and scared of how to tell u.
david1356: Tell me what exactly?
mcbree89: Of how I would like to just be friends.
david1356: You tell me this after the fact you practically tell everyone we are pretty much dating! That is what hurts the most.
mcbree89: I know, but I didn't know how to tell everyone. Seriously, everyone would ask every second of every day. I just finally had enough and said to a few people we were going out some. It wasn't a lie! We do go out... It was maybe a half-lie...
david1356: They asked me as well and I don't see how this isn't concerning you.
mcbree89: It does concern me everyday of how I "lied" to everyone. And, to tell you this I feel very terrible!
david1356: I don't get how within just days you can change your mind so much. I do not want to pressure you in any way but I'm so confused on how to feel about you. It's really awkward right now and I am not sure how to fix it, but I do want to be friends. It is going to be hard for me to just have the mind set of friend because as far as I knew you felt the same way I did. Sorry I caused so much trouble. I will just go away.
mcbree89: NO! Stop saying that! We can work this out and still be friends.
david1356: Obviously I caused trouble. I just want you so feel comfortable and not worry about me.
mcbree89: You didn't cause trouble.
david1356: Ok. A different word maybe. How about confusion, tension, hatred. The list could go on.
mcbree89: Well... U didn't cause any of it. I promise! It's ok!
david1356: Well, I'll leave you alone now so I can stop being the problem to your mayhem.
mcbree89: For the love of god! I don't want you to leave me alone. You are not a problem!!!

I read up to this point before I copied and pasted it. After I pasted it and read it again, I could remember it happening. I remember sitting in my chair in my room. I remember the feelings I was having. I remember what I had on. I remember not being able to sleep that night... Totally weird having those memories come flooding in. I might put more up later. I don't want to read anymore right now...

Guess I'll feed Molly. Wow! Sort or shaking a bit. Feel weak... Olivia went to the computer store to buy something for that computer she's working on. It's taking over the kitchen!!! She needs a workshop! I need a hug right now and for someone to hold me...

Today was a Full Day, to Say the Least!

Went to the office before I went to my parents to check on some stuff I had in the works for Monday around 10:45am. And good grief, Bob was in the office two doors down, the intern/extra office, and walked over to mine and asked if I was sick or something this week... I thought that was his car in the parking lot. I guess, from looking at pics of me that I have at my house, I usually wear make-up and have my hair done somewhat nicely. I was like, "No, I'm fine. Just, umm, trying something different..." He was like, "Oh.. ok... interesting. Well, you look nice today."  

I look pretty good today, right? 

"Thanks,' I said, giving him a thumbs up which somehow turned to a middle-finger sticking up when he left!!! He's always been a self proclaimed "ladies man" even thought most of the girls can't really stand him. Add one more to the pot! I guess he's not that bad looking for a guy, that's the only thing going for him. It was a little icky talking to him, with him kinda looking me up and down, very non-chalantly though. I wasn't even wearing anything revealing. Just what I normally wear... You guessed it. Jeans and t-shirt and a thin, leather jacket!!! Lol! I mean, come on dude, not that he knows this, but I can see right through that, I used to be a guy like a few days ago. I tried really hard to just be normal and talk to him like the guy me would have. That's my new goal. Just act normal. I know I look totally different but for the most part, I'm still me. Just be me, Bree! I was a pretty crazy person. No need to change all that just because I'm a girl now!!!

Mom's House...
Got there around 12:05 and they were in the yard playing Bocce. My parents are still so active and competitive. Got some big hugs from both of them. Dad squeezed me so tight I thought my right boob was gonna pop! He was a middle linebacker for the Hurricanes in college. He wrapped me up and picked me up like I was a rag doll. 

"Dad, put me down," in a really playful way. 
He responded with, "So good to see ya, Cindy B, how's my baby girl" as he set me down, ever so slightly.
"Don't call me that! You know I don't like that," I said while giving him a much smaller right hand punch to the gut. They used to call me Charlie B all the time. My first name was Charles. "I'm fine.. and hungry. What are we having?"
"I grilled some burgers. Should be finished right about now!"
"Cool! You know how I love your burgers!"

We went to the backyard and I could smell the burgers cooking.

Heck Yes!!! So good!

Brought back old memories. Now I get to make some new ones as Bree sitting right there in that backyard, enjoying my new life. Tearing up again... So happy! Mom was pouring tea in glasses, I just heard my brother pulling up! Wow! It's like the perfect family now. How I've wanted my life to be for so many years. All we were missing were Thomas and Jenny, my other bro and sis... We ate and chatted. I mostly just listened to everyone talking about their life and would respond when asked. Mom and Dad also updated us on T and J. There both planning on coming home for Memorial Day. I'm so excited to see sis!!! We're sisters. I'm a sister to someone!!! I just wanted to sit back and enjoy this. My brother, Luke, kept looking my way and smiling. 

When we finished eating he said, "Let's go swing, like we used to when we were little." 
"Ok," I said. "Let's go. But, you do know I can still go higher than you, right?"
"Not in your dreams, little girl," he said as we both sprinted over there to start swinging.

My butt in the swing alerted me to how much bigger it is now. Wow, bubble butt alert or so it felt... 

"Sis, you seem different, more alive or somethng. I don't know. You seem much happier or something."
"Well, I am happy. I feel like, for maybe some "magical"reason, my life has aligned with the "stars" and everything is how it should be. Ya ever feel that way?"
"Yeah, I guess sometimes. Well, I'm happy for ya. Good for you."

Just then, David from down the street came around the house and I could hear mom offering him a burger, which he accepted. Not many people have turned one of dad's grilled burgers. He fixed his plate and walked toward us.

"Hey Luke! Hey... Bree...," he said, much more shy-like to me than to Luke.
"What's up David. I see you got some lunch," Luke replied.
"Yeah, I saw the smoke and figured your dad was grilling out. You know I never pass up a Mr. McAdams burger."
"Oh yeah. They're the best. So, whatcha up to? Wanna throw some football or something?"
"Sure, sounds like fun... Umm, Bree, you wanna come throw some, too?"
"Oh, sure. Back here or in the front yard."
"Let's just go to the park. We can walk there. That cool with you guys?"
"Sure."
"Sure"

We headed for the park and just talked a little while. Kinda like the old times. The park is like 7 lots down from the McAdams household and when we got there, we set up in a triangle, about 10 yards apart or so and started to throw. Luke threw to David, David to me and then I threw back to Luke. I could tell David wasn't throwing nearly as hard as he used to throw to me when I was a guy. I really hated that! I can catch.. I hope!!!

The next time he threw to me, I threw it back to him pretty hard and said, "That's how ya throw Davey-Boy. Quit throwing like a girl!," and kinda laughed. 
"Sorry, sorry. I forget sometimes who you are. You're a McAdams girl. You know, not all girls can throw a football like you! You're quite a standout in that area, in my book anyway!" 

I think he was kinda shocked, but he recovered well! Good, I thought. I like shocking people! Lol! We threw for like 30 minutes and then we headed back to the "Old Folks Home" and just sat on the deck and talked. About nothing really. Just about work and stuff. Luke went in to watch some show and then it was just me and David. 

"So Bree... are you seeing anyone at the moment?"
"Are you asking me out, David?"
"Umm.. no.. umm... well... I... umm... I... It just seems like we used to talk about stuff like that or something in the past..."
"Well, I'm not at the moment. I'm not dating anyone right now out of choice. Figuring out some things, I guess. What about you? You seeing anyone?"
"Nope. Not right now..."
"Well then, you wanna go inside and watch some TV with Luke and dad?"
"Nah... I think I'll head on home. Dad mentioned something about working on the old Mustang this afternoon. Think I'll go see how that's coming. Good to se ya though. You, umm... look great... as always... see ya next time."
"Thanks David. You're too sweet. Bye."

Not a bad kid, super nice. For a guy, not bad in the looks department either. I can't believe he was that up front. Was he really asking me out? I mean, I guess he has to have some messed up memories of us in the past. We did talk about stuff like that. We'd talk about girls we were dating and the likes. I should have just answered his question I guess. Oh well, shock value at full force today!

I went in and saw all the family pics with me as Bree in them with my famliy. Made my heart flutter a bit. Almost teared up and cried... I kept it in though, somehow. I watched some Sportscenter with Luke and Dad and fell asleep on the couch, just like always. We woke up around 5:15 and mom was wondering if we wanted to go out for dinner. I said it'd have to be fast because I had band practice at 7. She said ok and we got ready to head out for dinner. We went to The Chili's on Biscayne Blvd and had a great time. I even drank a beer for the first time as a girl. I'm not a big drinker at all, so I was hoping that it wouldn't affect me too much. I really hated the taste. God, so disgusting now. I also ordered my usual, Dr. Pepper with cherry juice and no ice! 

I had to head out early and said my goodbyes. Dad demanded that he pay for mine which had my brother whining. He was really kidding but it was funny! He's so funny! I left and headed for practice. 


Band Practice...

As soon as I got there, I was introduced as "our chick guitar player" by John, out drummer, to one of his friends he brought. He didn't even mention my name. Had he at least mentioned my name, I wouldn't be so upset. But with both of them just standing there checking me out, that's a no-no! I didn't say anything then, but I knew later that I'd be setting a few things strait. I had to! Not gonna let that crap get started. 

Practice went really well! We rehearsed our set a couple times and then kinda really got in a groove and almost wrote a whole new song there on the spot. I ended up doing a lot of the vocals for the new song. Mostly just humming melody... We recorded a rough, live demo so we wouldn't forget it. And, that's another thing. Now that I'm a girl, I don't have trouble hitting the high harmony parts!!! And no one else in the band has a "girl" voice so I have something special!!! And I plan on using it!!! Too bad I still can't play guitar and sing that well at the same time. It has to be strait rhythm and not syncopated stuff or I can't sing and play at the same time. Another thing, and I know this is kinda calling the kettle black, but I still can't believe I'm a "chick lead guitarist" in a band. What I am now, I used to and still do think are so hot! Girl guitar players are just so freakin' hot!!!  

After practice, I followed John to the patio to talk to him. It was weird and uncomfortable, but I stood my ground. I felt really good after I did it... empowered. I just told him that I didn't appreciate that comment. Im not some "trophy" to be flaunted or shown around to his friends. I could tell that he might be a little drunk... That's ok with me, as long as he keeps the rhythm going and steady. He said that he didn't have to take this and started to walk away. I then said, "What if I introduced you as 'our dick-head guy drummer,' would you like that." He said, "Whatever." "Just don't let it happen again or you can, first of all, leave the drum sticks you're playing with here cause I bought them, and then you can head on out the door and just not come back!" I mean, I'm a co-founder of the band with Josh, our singer and rhythm player. John has always had an attitude problem and he thinks a lot with his dick and not his other head. Dumb Ass!

Anyway... I think Josh overheard some of that. He came up and said, "Wow. You really told him. Good job. He needs to be put in his place every ones in a while. Sorry it had to happen though..." I said I wasn't gonna let it slide. I then asked it he could take a pic of me with my phone. Mom wanted a pic of me with my guitar to show someone. Looks like I am "trophy" after all. Damn. 

Here's the pic from practice, taken by Josh. We practice in his basement sometimes. Had to go to the bathroom and touch up my make-up before he took it though! He didn't know that's why I went. That's such a girly thing to do!!! Lol! My hair looks so much longer in this pic... Used the straightener on it this morning... Wore my old, faded jean jacket that was at my parent's house just because it's cool! It is cool, right!?!?!?

I then packed up my guitar and told the guys bye and headed home. It was about 10:15 when I pulled in and I was so tired. What a long day! Sooo sleeeeepy... Decided to blog a little cause I knew this day was full of stuff to tell about. Wrote most of it and then just flopped down on the couch, kicked my shoes off and laid there for a while. My bra was really cutting into me for some reason under my right boob so I took off my shirt, then bra and then started back watching TV. It wasn't long 'till I realized that I was laying there topless with jeans and socks on. Looking down at myself, the perspective I was seeing, was so amazingly hot!!! And yes, of course I took pic after I got my jeans off!

One of the best views I've ever seen!

It didn't take long for my hands to find their way to my boobs and then the rest of my clothes started to come off... I'll leave it at that... but it was good! I fell asleep on the couch. Woke up at around 4:35am and finished this post... Sorry it's so long... Oh myyy, stilll so tired... Nighty night!